BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
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I know I need to bring this up to my therapist and psychiatrist next week. I'm tired of my anxiety escalating at night, resulting in excess energy, emotional breakdowns, or just flat out stupid fears.
I posted a few weeks ago about how my anxiety gets so bad that I imagine dumb things outside my room and window, in the corners of my room, etc. The deer-like creature, demons, things like that. They're obviously not real, but I swear I can feel their presence. I'm terrified that if I let my guard down these fake creatures will hurt me. I'm scared that if I look anywhere that I think they could be, it will "invite" them to hurt me.
It's going on again. It's been going on for a few nights. It's so annoying. It feels like there's something right next to me and it's making me so nervous that I feel sick. I feel crazy, even though I know it's just random anxiety. I still haven't gotten that night light, but I'm thinking about it. But even when I have soft lights on, the shadows in the room scare me. I just can't get away from it.
I hope they don't laugh at me if I manage to bring this up. I know it sounds incredibly stupid. Gah.
I have anxiety issues during the day too, but it's just the normal malaise and dread. Rumination. Etc. Gets worse when I leave my room, go outside, go to work...whatever. It's better than this crap going on right now.
I guess I'm also scared because all year I've been talked to about being hospitalized. I really don't want to give more reason for them to push it :(
I posted a few weeks ago about how my anxiety gets so bad that I imagine dumb things outside my room and window, in the corners of my room, etc. The deer-like creature, demons, things like that. They're obviously not real, but I swear I can feel their presence. I'm terrified that if I let my guard down these fake creatures will hurt me. I'm scared that if I look anywhere that I think they could be, it will "invite" them to hurt me.
It's going on again. It's been going on for a few nights. It's so annoying. It feels like there's something right next to me and it's making me so nervous that I feel sick. I feel crazy, even though I know it's just random anxiety. I still haven't gotten that night light, but I'm thinking about it. But even when I have soft lights on, the shadows in the room scare me. I just can't get away from it.
I hope they don't laugh at me if I manage to bring this up. I know it sounds incredibly stupid. Gah.
I have anxiety issues during the day too, but it's just the normal malaise and dread. Rumination. Etc. Gets worse when I leave my room, go outside, go to work...whatever. It's better than this crap going on right now.
I guess I'm also scared because all year I've been talked to about being hospitalized. I really don't want to give more reason for them to push it :(
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