Night night practice

[Rsuicidal]

I have been trying to get to the pass out or seizure stage of night night with my hands to get the feeling over with and also see what I do or dont do during a convulsion.
Sort of pushing with the thumb area near my wrists on either side of my windpipe isnt producing any effect, pressure and light stars but it is too much and I stop. I cannot be doing this right.
I wouldnt consider myself massive but still 145lb 5'5 is it possible I just cant push hard enough by myself?

Also if I am doing this with my hands ie will release instantly, will I still get red eyes or other indicators of me practicing? Have someone around some of the time that knows I have ideation and no excuse for marks at all.

 

[Stillnotsure]

You likely won't be successful in practicing any way besides with an actual night night set up. You could try carotid massage, where you use your pointer and jiggle gfi gets to massage where you feel the pulse, this slows your heart rate down and can cause blackouts. You can get petechiaeor broken blood vessels from attempts because the pressure build ups cause the smallest blood vessels in your eyes and skin to leech blood. If you use makeup you can usually hide that.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

Have a look the the night night method thread cause there may be answers to your question there. I don't believe size matter much in terms of carotid compression.