Destin

Destin

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Aug 15, 2018
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Just wanted to drop in an give an update.

As some of you know im 25 and have been depressed for most of my life. I was going to give things a couple more years before re evaluating and committing to another, more serious- lethal attempt than my first one, which resulted in a 3 day coma from a psych medication overdose.

About a month ago I was in the shower and I asked the universe to 'please send me someone.'
A week later a very nice boy across the city started talking to me. I went over to his place to meet him and within the first hour had the most insane connection ive ever experienced.
I could go on about how the past few weeks have been for me. Hes given my flowers, makes me food every morning. I was with him during a major surgery, which will be just one of many that are coming up soon. We showed each other our self harm scars. Talked about our exes and our codependency issues and problems saying no to people. We think and say things at the same time.

On the second night of knowing him, I told him about my plans to ctb in a couple of years if things didnt get better. I cried on his chest and he moved me to the bed and he quietly cried too and said he hopes maybe he could change my mind, or if nothing else that this experience will let me know that there are good things out there for me.

So, I have a boyfriend now. And a renewed sense of hope. I cannot begin to tell you guys I have never had someone be this kind and understanding towards me. ...
Im so not used to it that its hard for my brain to process it, and if I didnt know any better I would run from it.

Ultimately I dont know what will happen. Maybe this will just be a beautiful time in my life, until it isnt again and I dont want to stick around. But either way Im glad it happened.

So I want to wish all of you the best of luck, in life, or in your death. Which ever will bring you the most peace.
 
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MissLisa

MissLisa

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Sep 13, 2018
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That sounds really good. Wishing you some happy times
 
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Ixtab

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Sep 17, 2018
54
I'm happy for your beautiful time in life. Thank you for sharing your update, it was relieving to read! Good luck!
 
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Made4TV

Made4TV

A hopeless hope junkie
Sep 17, 2018
574
That's really nice. Best wishes to you.
 
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mattwitt

mattwitt

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Jun 28, 2018
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I think we all only need one thing to keep us going... Glad you found yours !!! : )
 
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itsallover

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Jun 29, 2018
478
I hope it all works out for you. You're going to see his ugly side too eventually. Don't make all of your happiness depend on one other person. I know you're vulnerable, but protect yourself at the same time too. You see the best of someone in the beginning. Hopefully it continues to be great, but expect the hard times too. I wish you both the best.
 
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MachineGunDani

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Sep 10, 2018
336
Congrats on finding some hope! It's nice to hear good shit sometimes! I'm happy for u, he sounds sweet!
 
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InkBlot

InkBlot

What Do You See?
Sep 17, 2018
162
I am glad the universe answered your cries. It seems to ignore mine far too often, haha.
 
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Ben

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Sep 12, 2018
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Just wanted to drop in an give an update.

As some of you know im 25 and have been depressed for most of my life. I was going to give things a couple more years before re evaluating and committing to another, more serious- lethal attempt than my first one, which resulted in a 3 day coma from a psych medication overdose.

About a month ago I was in the shower and I asked the universe to 'please send me someone.'
A week later a very nice boy across the city started talking to me. I went over to his place to meet him and within the first hour had the most insane connection ive ever experienced.
I could go on about how the past few weeks have been for me. Hes given my flowers, makes me food every morning. I was with him during a major surgery, which will be just one of many that are coming up soon. We showed each other our self harm scars. Talked about our exes and our codependency issues and problems saying no to people. We think and say things at the same time.

On the second night of knowing him, I told him about my plans to ctb in a couple of years if things didnt get better. I cried on his chest and he moved me to the bed and he quietly cried too and said he hopes maybe he could change my mind, or if nothing else that this experience will let me know that there are good things out there for me.

So, I have a boyfriend now. And a renewed sense of hope. I cannot begin to tell you guys I have never had someone be this kind and understanding towards me. ...
Im so not used to it that its hard for my brain to process it, and if I didnt know any better I would run from it.

Ultimately I dont know what will happen. Maybe this will just be a beautiful time in my life, until it isnt again and I dont want to stick around. But either way Im glad it happened.

So I want to wish all of you the best of luck, in life, or in your death. Which ever will bring you the most peace.

What a beautiful message and experience. I'm glad to see it's still possible for some. Best of luck right back at you!
 
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Firefly1

Member
Aug 30, 2018
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Just wanted to drop in an give an update.

As some of you know im 25 and have been depressed for most of my life. I was going to give things a couple more years before re evaluating and committing to another, more serious- lethal attempt than my first one, which resulted in a 3 day coma from a psych medication overdose.

About a month ago I was in the shower and I asked the universe to 'please send me someone.'
A week later a very nice boy across the city started talking to me. I went over to his place to meet him and within the first hour had the most insane connection ive ever experienced.
I could go on about how the past few weeks have been for me. Hes given my flowers, makes me food every morning. I was with him during a major surgery, which will be just one of many that are coming up soon. We showed each other our self harm scars. Talked about our exes and our codependency issues and problems saying no to people. We think and say things at the same time.

On the second night of knowing him, I told him about my plans to ctb in a couple of years if things didnt get better. I cried on his chest and he moved me to the bed and he quietly cried too and said he hopes maybe he could change my mind, or if nothing else that this experience will let me know that there are good things out there for me.

So, I have a boyfriend now. And a renewed sense of hope. I cannot begin to tell you guys I have never had someone be this kind and understanding towards me. ...
Im so not used to it that its hard for my brain to process it, and if I didnt know any better I would run from it.

Ultimately I dont know what will happen. Maybe this will just be a beautiful time in my life, until it isnt again and I dont want to stick around. But either way Im glad it happened.

So I want to wish all of you the best of luck, in life, or in your death. Which ever will bring you the most peace.
So happy you found someone like that and in such adverse times too! This might just be the universe giving you a sign lol. But anyway i hope your renewed sense of hope stays with you forever and you have a good life. Good luck and lots of love from a stranger!
 
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IG959

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Aug 14, 2018
430
I hope you're okay and Im sad to hear it isn't what you expected
 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

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Aug 5, 2018
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What a beautiful message and experience. I'm glad to see it's still possible for some. Best of luck right back at you!

For some of us it is already too late.
 
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