I had an evaluation with a new psychiatrist today. I was really nervous because she has horrible yelp reviews but I'd already made the appointment and couldn't find the list I got her from to make one with someone else. The thing that stuck out most were the reviews that said she was cold and uncaring and condescending. It turns out she just isn't very expressive. She seems very flat on the surface, but I think she's actually nice, though very reserved.
They have a policy of up to three assessment appointments before deciding on a medication regimen but at the end of just the first one she already agreed that my current meds are good. I seriously downplayed the suicide stuff, but overall was up front. She was trying to ask me questions to determine whether I'm bipolar or not and thank god I've been at this long enough to be able to make a solid case for why even though I can appear to be this way on the surface I'm just really affected by things like my environment, diet, etc.
I have mixed emotions about both her and my therapist asking for each other's names. I know they can't talk to each other without a release, but of course if I get too suicidal "that goes out the window," as my therapist puts it. Thank god she's not trigger happy with the hospitalizations. The one time I took myself in she recommended to them to keep me a little longer but she's never forced me to go. The impression I got today was similar with the new psychiatrist.
I feel like I'm never going to be suicidal again but I always feel like this when I get out from under it. Do you guys experience this as well, where you'll be really suicidal, depressed, anxious for a while and it feels absolute, as if you'll be this way forever and always have been, but then when those weeks or months or whatever pass the feeling better also feels absolute, as if it is was always has been and will be? Intellectually the truth is there as data but the experience of it feels this way. Maybe I actually am a little bipolar??
They have a policy of up to three assessment appointments before deciding on a medication regimen but at the end of just the first one she already agreed that my current meds are good. I seriously downplayed the suicide stuff, but overall was up front. She was trying to ask me questions to determine whether I'm bipolar or not and thank god I've been at this long enough to be able to make a solid case for why even though I can appear to be this way on the surface I'm just really affected by things like my environment, diet, etc.
I have mixed emotions about both her and my therapist asking for each other's names. I know they can't talk to each other without a release, but of course if I get too suicidal "that goes out the window," as my therapist puts it. Thank god she's not trigger happy with the hospitalizations. The one time I took myself in she recommended to them to keep me a little longer but she's never forced me to go. The impression I got today was similar with the new psychiatrist.
I feel like I'm never going to be suicidal again but I always feel like this when I get out from under it. Do you guys experience this as well, where you'll be really suicidal, depressed, anxious for a while and it feels absolute, as if you'll be this way forever and always have been, but then when those weeks or months or whatever pass the feeling better also feels absolute, as if it is was always has been and will be? Intellectually the truth is there as data but the experience of it feels this way. Maybe I actually am a little bipolar??
