New here and chronically ill

[Prescotmunn]

Hi , I'm 40 from the UK. Up north Liverpool. I have chronic health issues and my nerves burn all the time. I don't want to die alone but I will have too. I'm not so good at many DIY methods such as I'm scared of screwing up the hanging method.

I don't know where to source SN or that would be my number one method.

I don't think I could jump in front of a train at all. Jumping off a cliff I'm scared to survive.

Only prescription drugs I have are baclofen and pregabalin plus codeine. I guess taking all that together wouldn't work.

I thought about going to a hotel a nice one with a bath and take diazepam and cut my throat but not sure if that would work.

How the hell can I do it, I just need to do it and in least nasty way possible. I'm hurting from not being able to just dissappear

 

[Luminous_]

we're both in the uk! It's quite easy to find drug dealers around, I'm not sure what product is super common in your area but heroin overdose would not only feel amazing, but heroin for a first time user can easily be fatal. Take a gram and you're set, that's what another friend on here is doing and I took the inspiration from them lol

I've read others experiences with oding on heroin and said they just kind of passed out, then woke up because they were treated, so you get the most amazing high known to human history then peacefully drift to forever sleep. Sounds like a good deal to me.

 

[Prescotmunn]

I wouldn't like to do that alone. I would have to make sure it killed me too.

 

[ma0]

we're both in the uk! It's quite easy to find drug dealers around

The fact that this is so true is both funny and sad.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand just wanting to disappear, it's so dreadful and painful to me how there isn't the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[iwantpeacenopain]

I got nerve burning pain as well, it's horrible, I can understand your pain ... sorry

 

[Peter Skellern]

The fact that this is so true is both funny and sad.

If you're a person who's never had experience with drugs or the like (and aren't young) that's not really true.

 

[ma0]

If you're a person who's never had experience with drugs or the like (and aren't young) that's not really true.

I was mainly referring to the way Luminous_ worded the post. Obviously, drugs are horrific.

 

[Peter Skellern]

I was mainly referring to the way Luminous_ worded the post. Obviously, drugs are horrific.

Yes they are. I was thinking in terms of obtaining them though. Most everyday, normal law abiding people are going to find it difficult to obtain drugs. Well, I would anyway.

 

[ma0]

Yes they are. I was thinking in terms of obtaining them though. Most everyday, normal law abiding people are going to find it difficult to obtain drugs. Well, I would anyway.

I've seen them everywhere, especially at night. My town is basically a haven for them.

I once saw 2 of them operating on the same street, back when I had rented my first flat. I don't have much experience with drugs though, so I assume you can't just waltz up to them. I think it's still concerning though...

 

[Peter Skellern]

I've seen them everywhere, especially at night. My town is basically a haven for them.

I once saw 2 of them operating on the same street, back when I had rented my first flat. I don't have much experience with drugs though, so I assume you can't just waltz up to them. I think it's still concerning though...

The latter bit sums me up. I'm 60. I'd probably get mugged/scammed or arrested (I'd probably approach an undercover cop lol). That's why I've explored the DW.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Hello and welcome! I'm sorry for your pain, I can relate to nerve pain 24/7 due to neuropathy. I don't know the cause of yours, but mine has thankfully almost disappeared after about 4 years. I hope you find peace within and the answers you are searching for in your journey.