Venting Never meant to be happy

[Brokensoulwalking]

Just been assessing my life. And I've realised are some of us just built never to be happy.

I can't remember the last time I was and if I said I was I was lying.

Since 8 years old when I first attempted at suicide I realised I'm not meant to be here.

I'm a pussy though, I won't take my own life and wait for someone to take it for me. I am fucking pathetic in every sense of the word.

Don't know why I needed to vent this, usually very reserved. But I just don't have the energy to fight anymore

 

[glitterypearls]

I'm sorry you are dealing with that, I hope you somehow get close to feeling happy. attempting at 8yo is really heartbreaking

 

[Brokensoulwalking]

I'm sorry you are dealing with that, I hope you somehow get close to feeling happy. attempting at 8yo is really heartbreaking

Long story but I was sexually abused and all the life went out of me. From that day on, I could experience any form of love or joy

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Yeah I know what you mean, I wish I had the courage to keep going with that plastic bag when I was a kid

"Perhaps some souls are born into death... they never knew how to live..." Kerghan

 

[Brokensoulwalking]

Yeah I know what you mean, I wish I had the courage to keep going with that plastic bag when I was a kid

"Perhaps some souls are born into death... they never knew how to live..." Kerghan

Had to take a minute to respond. I did something similar. I wrapped a cord around my neck and jumped

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly know that I'm not meant for existing as well, in fact I could never wish to exist in this harsh world filled with endless torment. I know that I'm only meant to return to nonexistence, the way that I see it happiness doesn't even exist, it's just a delusion to eventually cause existing beings to suffer more. It sounds really horrific what you've been through and it's disgusting how humans create so much harm. This world truly is hell.