iOnceFeltAlive
Seeking peace
- Jul 31, 2020
- 31
Every day it's the same thing. I sleep all throughout the day to wake up around 7 pm. I maybe eat once a day when my parents call me to come and eat. Then I play video games until around 4-5 am when I try to get some sleep but always end up on my phone either on these forums, or just tossing and turning restlessly. I can only sleep when my eyes are too tired and burning to keep them open. I dont even like going to the bathroom because I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. Sometimes I don't even turn the light on so I don't have to see myself. And when I go outside I'm always ashamed of myself and comparing myself to all theses good looking people while I feel ugly and disguising. I go outside very rarely anymore. I just can't stand to live like this anymore.