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Ednospatient

Arcanist
Sep 2, 2021
408
This shit will never end. I keep throwing up for no fucking reason. It's a chronic illness and the 3 year mark is just around the corner. I really don't want to end it but I'm left with very little choices. I have to. My therapist finally admitted the other day she fully understands how I feel and the fact I want to CTB.

I just want to say, if you don't have a physical illness like me, please stick around for a little longer. I know how it feels to hit rock bottom depression wise. I've been depressed for 7 years. But you'll eventually learn to live with it. Wishing you guys all the best.
 
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Cryptonite

Cryptonite

In the state of shock of what happened
Apr 30, 2022
722
This shit will never end. I keep throwing up for no fucking reason. It's a chronic illness and the 3 year mark is just around the corner. I really don't want to end it but I'm left with very little choices. I have to. My therapist finally admitted the other day she fully understands how I feel and the fact I want to CTB.

I just want to say, if you don't have a physical illness like me, please stick around for a little longer. I know how it feels to hit rock bottom depression wise. I've been depressed for 7 years. But you'll eventually learn to live with it. Wishing you guys all the best.
What's your health problem? Mine is late diagnosed Scheuermann's disease. Ruined life. Fu*k this. Will go soon.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,793
That does sound really horrific what you have to go through and it's so incredibly awful how life can torture people with health problems.
But being physically healthy doesn't automatically make existing to be worth enduring, I know that even if I never suffered physically I would still never wish to endure something so useless and unnecessary as existing.

Not everyone wants to stay here anyway, and there are other forms of suffering than physical illness, I just don't really think that it's fair invalidating other people's problems as you cannot experience life the same way as them after all. I get that you envy other people but still, it's quite insensitive to say things like "you learn to live with it". I don't really recommend that you say this to other suicidal people, that is exactly the type of invalidating platitude that people come on this site to escape from. Everyone experiences life differently after all and you know nothing about what others go through. Every reason to consider suicide is perfectly valid, nobody should have to "stick around", if they don't wish to, and it's nothing to do with you what others choose to do with their lives. Nobody on this site needs a to be given a lecture, by a stranger.
 

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