NSFW Never ctb

[tevati]

Things are bad, but I doubt i have ever the guts to do it. Can someone relate? When did you realize you never kill yourself?

 

[weedoge]

Can't say I think I'll never kill myself but I understand my reasons for being too scared to go through with it yet. I don't understand how my feelings will change overtime and I'm just taking it slow so that I don't make any mistake. I can't engage with life but also can't seem to engage with death yet either.

 

[tevati]

Never is a bit over the top. It was more mean not this year and very likely not next year

 

[Hanging on]

Things are bad, but I doubt i have ever the guts to do it. Can someone relate? When did you realize you never kill yourself?

then you are not ready! Trust me when you're in pain you will
Know it. If only there was a simple pill that would take the pain away, would of been gone long ago

 

[Made4TV]

Not gonna lie. Kinda disappointed this thread seems safe for work.

 

[loanedshirt]

I can't engage with life but also can't seem to engage with death yet either.

i love this.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

That's one of my top fears is that I will never have the ability or courage to finally do it. I'm trying to get everything just right and do it before december. I pretty much have everything I need but it never feels like enough to achieve a guaranteed exit. Can't afford another failure .

 

[TiredHorse]

That's one of my top fears is that I will never have the ability or courage to finally do it. I'm trying to get everything just right and do it before december. I pretty much have everything I need but it never feels like enough to achieve a guaranteed exit. Can't afford another failure .

That's where I am tonight: sitting here with my bottle of N2, bag ready to go, wondering whether I'll find the courage or have to live with another failure. I predict the latter.

 

[Going Home]

I didn't think I wanted a violent method of ctb but waiting for my ride outside tonight I wish someone would walk up behind me and put me out of my misery.
No need to gather and pay for items.

 

[Goldie]

Why is this tagged as NSFW?

 

[Made4TV]

Why is this tagged as NSFW?

OP works at a preschool? ;)

 

[tony.end]

I realized it a month ago when I was most serious about it. I'm not scared of death, but I don't want to hurt my parents and my brother, though I'm not in a good relationship with them. So I'll probably not do it for some time. I hope to get as far away as possibly from family so they get used without me

 

[Shewaitsforme]

That's where I am tonight: sitting here with my bottle of N2, bag ready to go, wondering whether I'll find the courage or have to live with another failure. I predict the latter.

What size is your bottle in litres. Im struggling to find the exact size id need here in the uk. Ive seen 20litre cylinders not sure its enough tho

 

[TiredHorse]

What size is your bottle in litres. Im struggling to find the exact size id need here in the uk. Ive seen 20litre cylinders not sure its enough tho

I have what in the US is a 40cf cylinder. A 22cf would do. I am not sure what those would be called in metric.

 

[Arak]

What if you don't have a choice ?

 

[Help_Me]

Sorry that did not find a better thread to ask, but what does "NSFW" stands for ?

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Sorry that did not find a better thread to ask, but what does "NSFW" stands for ?

Not safe for work. It usually implies shit is about to get dirty. 16 posts and not a naked woman in sight though. I think we're all a little disillusioned.

 

[Help_Me]

Thank you so much !

 

[worldexploder]

I will CTB once I find a peaceful method. The problem is all the methods I want are unreachable at the moment. Fucking sucks.

 

[Kim]

Often I cry when I get really bad and dark thoughts. I don't wanna do it... but on the other hand I plan it very clearly . Still waiting for some stuff and then I'm ready.

It's a very hard decision to CTB or not to CTB. I don't want to go asap because of my loving boyfriend. He is the only reason I live anymore and he knows this. I hate the other parts of my life. Obviously my life is great but I'm too tired to fight anymore. FML!!!

 

[Xerxes]

When you realize how much you fail at life, that you also fail at death. I'm average in everything I do it seems.

 

[Lara Francis]

Things are bad, but I doubt i have ever the guts to do it. Can someone relate? When did you realize you never kill yourself?

Still waiting for that day !