Need to leave

[jussrav]

I've tried to hang. Noone wants to be around a messed up person. I've had everyone be nasty to me. Tell me to go and die do whatever. Doctors have stopped prescribing stuff.I've had enough I just wish I could just get out of here. Mentally I am so messed up I have parents but I actually feel like I dont have parents. Its like I am dead I dont enjoy with them so for me it's like there's no point having them. I am in distress everyday. I can't function, eat, watch tv, sleep, things people take for granted. I have a brain tumour that could make me go blind eventually. And I have long covid twice. I've lost most of my hair etc, get breathing problems, nosebleeds. Yet people say that I am just being a victim. I am not . I can't function as I dont sleep at all. Yet people around me who are functioning are saying they have it worse. Makes no sense. I have to push myself to function because I don't sleep. People say let's do this I am like how will I do it with no energy from no sleeping. This is my life now. I dont function anymore its driving me mad. People are sick of me I qm sick of myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so dreadful how other people are so insensitive and just invalidate suffering, I understand why you'd wish to be free so badly as it sounds really torturous what you are going through.