Help Need help with Nembutal, don't have much time

[farewell_lover]

Guys!

I need a quick and effective N protocol. I don't have any solid plan. But I found an online pharmacy that sells 10 ml of N for $150 (I am in the US). I plan to use some OTC antiemetic and some hydroxyzine to reduce stress (which I got as a prescription). I don't want to do it at home as my husband would be the first one to find out. Instead, I want to go to a bathroom (that is not used very often) in my school, close the door, and end it. Evening would be a great time. Unfortunately, I can't go anywhere else. I am pretty lonely and alien in this town, the only place I can trust for my body to be found is school.

How can I trust this online pharmacy?
Is the price too high/low?
How high is the risk of being rescued when I do it at school?
How can I test N when I receive it?
Is the dosage going to work? (I weigh less than 130 lbs)

Please help me find a way out! I have been suicidal on and off for over 10 years now. I am living a semi-life and everything seems really pointless to me. I really want to do it impulsively before I become numb again. I figured that is the only way I might be able to end my tragic life.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

It's a scam.

 

[farewell_lover]

It's a scam.

So where do you recommend getting it from? Please help me!!

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I don't live in the U.S so I'm not entirely sure, but there's a reason why people there go through the trouble of traveling to Bolivia and Perú to get N. $150 seems too good to be true so it probably is indeed a scam.

There are other viable alternatives such as SN, but they may take a while to arrive at your doorstep or may not be easily available. I genuinely understand the need to act on impulse before you feel numb and lose momentum to carry on with your decision, but it's important to take a moment if only to make sure you have an effective method at your disposal.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

So where do you recommend getting it from? Please help me!!

N isn't available anymore unless you travel to Peru and try to get it from a vet supply store.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Scam. Don't do it.

 

[farewell_lover]

I don't live in the U.S so I'm not entirely sure, but there's a reason why people there go through the trouble of traveling to Bolivia and Perú to get N. $150 seems too good to be true so it probably is indeed a scam.

There are other viable alternatives such as SN, but they may take a while to arrive at your doorstep or may not be easily available. I genuinely understand the need to act on impulse before you feel numb and lose momentum to carry on with your decision, but it's important to take a moment if only to make sure you have an effective method at your disposal.

So do you recommend SN would be a more reliable option?

 

[Michi_Violeta]

So do you recommend SN would be a more reliable option?

It's been effective for several people in these forums and it's recommended by the PPH, might as well give it a shot since N become unobtanium.

 

[farewell_lover]

It's been effective for several people in these forums and it's recommended by the PPH, might as well give it a shot since N become unobtanium.

Thank you!

 

[locked*n*loaded]

So do you recommend SN would be a more reliable option?

You better read and study about SN thoroughly before going through with it. It has its own protocol that is best followed.

SN more reliable than N? No

 

[farewell_lover]

seems like I'm not even enough when it comes to find the best suicide method :)

You better read and study about SN thoroughly before going through with it. It has its own protocol that is best followed.

SN more reliable than N? No

Any recommendation on how to study on it myself? Pretty scared at this point ://

 

[J&L383]

Scam. Don't do it.

Scam. Scam. (Sadly)

 

[Whale_bones]

seems like I'm not even enough when it comes to find the best suicide method :)

Any recommendation on how to study on it myself?

It's no flaw of your own; planning for a reliable, non-violent death is a difficult thing that takes thought and determination. It's only presented as easy in media and popular culture.

As others have mentioned, read the PPH. Use the search bar, many forum members have taken the time to write up useful info.

Don't act impulsively, that is likely to put you in an even worse situation. Feeling scared is understandable, but you're the only one who can know if this is the right decision for you. IMO, learning about your options is an essential step.