ever so lonely
terry joseph williams
- Apr 17, 2022
- 282
ok u lovely guys/gals, i need advice please because this is keeping me up at night and pushing me to ctb, ok beginning of this year, say around february i met a woman briefly from online dating, i was reckless, careless which is unusual for me, i think the pair of us were in hindsight, nobody to blame per se, she is slightly older than me, which is absolutely fine, but we hit it off, sort of, my depression makes it difficult for me to hit it off with anybody to tell the truth, but hit it off by my standards, prior to that i hadnt dated for 5 years let alone been intimate, took a long break to better myself or try to at least, anyhoo we were seeing eachother for around 6 months, on and off, never technically together or certainly never official, we slept together multiple times unprotected, and then recently the bombshell, shes pregnant, for definate, she doesnt know herself if i am the father or not, but was good enough to tell me, and level with me, and has admitted as much to me, what a mess of a situation, she was honest with me about the not knowing part and admits there was another guy in or around her conception window, as i said we were never an item per se, so cant hold it against her, though i had nobody else, but it could be me as the dates add up but admittedly that doesn't prove anything in and of itself, i am so confused scared and restless, but want to do the correct thing, just dont know what that is, the stress has added onto the anxiety n depression and ptsd i already suffer, and i just want it to end, what should i do in this situation do you think ?, i have stated in numerous occasions i will support her where i can, just frightened of being taken advantage of, but she feels it is me that has fathered the child, tho tbh i am not sure myself, sorry for the very long ass winded status here, but as you can guess it is making me morbidly wanting to ctb, this is life altering stuff i got going on here, if the child is not mine then i want no part of it, but if it is i will do my best, what do you peeps think ? what would you do in this situation ?, i have nowhere to turn for advice and even samaritans said they couldnt help recently, (there not able to give advice over the phone for fear it could be wrong advice), i feel so alone in this, thanks peoples and take care.