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peepo
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- Nov 11, 2021
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Hello,
So I am currently in a hotel deciding if I should CTB. I feel this is the wrong time and I am pushing myself to ctb. I feel I am not desperate enough. The issue is that, the moment I get home I feel like shit and want to ctb. I cannot ctb at home because I have people living and they check on me often.
I tried to CTB last month but failed. I tried partial hanging but the tree was short and the rope was hurting my neck. I tired hard to find a good tree but couldn't find any good one. So I waited until my neck was feeling ok.
I blew all of my money, failed college, failed life but I still feel the same as before. I don't have any emotions.
Should I wait until New Years and maybe I feel more desperate?
Should I practice the method so when the time comes I will be ready? I do have a razor blade and utility knife incase the ratchet gets stuck.
Any advice helps.
Thank you
So I am currently in a hotel deciding if I should CTB. I feel this is the wrong time and I am pushing myself to ctb. I feel I am not desperate enough. The issue is that, the moment I get home I feel like shit and want to ctb. I cannot ctb at home because I have people living and they check on me often.
I tried to CTB last month but failed. I tried partial hanging but the tree was short and the rope was hurting my neck. I tired hard to find a good tree but couldn't find any good one. So I waited until my neck was feeling ok.
I blew all of my money, failed college, failed life but I still feel the same as before. I don't have any emotions.
Should I wait until New Years and maybe I feel more desperate?
Should I practice the method so when the time comes I will be ready? I do have a razor blade and utility knife incase the ratchet gets stuck.
Any advice helps.
Thank you