Help Need a new escape plan

[Need Peace]

For many years I always had an escape plan. If things ever got bad enough I'd just OD on sleeping pills and never wake up. I thought it was a guaranteed method.

Well, things got bad enough. So, recently, I did some research to determine how many pills I would need and found out modern sleeping pills don't really work. I must have gotten the idea from a movie or something. So now I've been searching for a new method.

I always wanted to go to sleep and have a painless exit. When I read about N I thought that would be perfect only to find out its no longer obtainable. Next best would be an opiate OD. However, as a former heroin addict who's been clean for many years, I just can't bring myself to do that. I'm certain I can get fent and my opiate tolerance should be low enough that it'd work, but getting and staying clean is one of the few things I've ever done right in life. I didn't do all that to die with a needle in my arm now.

I don't want a violent death. I don't want my last moments to be traumatic either. So no gunshot, no jumping off buildings/bridges, no hanging, no drowning, and no cutting.

I thought maybe SN or SA would work but I've read quite a few reports that its definitely not a peaceful solution. The inert gas method sounds peaceful, but dying with a bag over my head just doesn't feel palatable to me.

I need to figure something out. I don't think I'm ready to CBT yet, but I wish I could do it every fucking day. Things are getting bad now and they could still get worse. I would feel better if I have a sound escape plan that I know I'd be comfortable with and I know would work.

Maybe I won't have to execute it, but knowing I have an exit button is a comfort in itself. I'd appreciate any suggestions.

Thanks

 

[ipmanwc0]

holy **** you just ruled out like everything that's reliable.

 

[Need Peace]

holy **** you just ruled out like everything that's reliable.

Lol

 

[kaidatenn]

Kai heard that kbbq is quite popular in korea. Dont know if it actually works but i kinda want to try if i ever do a third attempt. At least someone wont go and prevent me to do that since it looks pretty normal.

 

[Need Peace]

Kbbq?

 

[f1lth]

Kai heard that kbbq is quite popular in korea. Dont know if it actually works but i kinda want to try if i ever do a third attempt. At least someone wont go and prevent me to do that since it looks pretty normal.

i havent heard of kbbq before, could you tell me what it is ?

 

[ipmanwc0]

they probably mean carbon monoxide

 

[kaidatenn]

i havent heard of kbbq before, could you tell me what it is ?

Yeah basically just ignite lots of charcoal in a closed room. Looks normal at least in korea since its almost the same as having a korean bbq, just without ventilation and foods.

 

[f1lth]

Yeah basically just ignite lots of charcoal in a closed room. Looks normal at least in korea since its almost the same as having a korean bbq, just without ventilation and foods.

oh okay thank you

 

[Need Peace]

Yeah basically just ignite lots of charcoal in a closed room. Looks normal at least in korea since its almost the same as having a korean bbq, just without ventilation and foods.

Thanks, I'll check it out.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly wish that suicide is as straightforward as od on something like sleeping pills, I hate how it's so unnecessarily difficult to die but if you wish to read about suicide method options then there is the suicide resource compilation section. But anyway I hope that you find what you are searching for, it's cruel to me how there isn't a easy, guaranteed and painless option to just instantly be free from this existence.

 

[Need Peace]

Yeah basically just ignite lots of charcoal in a closed room. Looks normal at least in korea since its almost the same as having a korean bbq, just without ventilation and foods.

Thanks for this. I've been researching this method a little more now. Not sure about it. At first, it sounds enticing. It's simple and supposedly peaceful. However, then I read about some failed attempts from people who seemed to do everything right. Still, I'm thinking this method or maybe HS would be best now.