Venting Nearly time, getting nervous

[Shewaitsforme]

Having to wait till tuesday so i can afford a nitrogen tank, ill be odering online for next day delivery. Im excited but so nervous. Its like finally ill have a good painfree method so no reason to back out unless it doesnt work. Got a mandatory doctors appointment Monday just hoping they dont section me, have to go or they will send the police.

Ive noticed for months ive just put it off hoping something would change but there comes a point you realise its just getting worse, ill be 2 months behond on rent, debt up to my eyeballs with debt collectors, no job and few mates well actually only 1 now who knows what im going through really as we met on tje psych ward.

Think tuesday night ill invite her round, have a drug and drink night like last night, shell go home and wednesday night ill do it. Fucking scary isnt it eventhough its something we really want.

 

[worldexploder]

I wish you all the luck in the world. This is one of my dream methods. No suffering whatsoever. It's a guaranteed success as long as you follow the instructions Exit International set up. Also be sure to exhale fully before you breathe in the nitrogen. This way you will pass out in seconds.

That's fucked up that they would send the police after you for not going to an appointment. Damn. I don't see them sectioning you as long as you make the appointment and reframe from saying anything alarming.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

Its because ive been sectioned twice, they tried to apply to the court to put me on a section 3 but couldnt prove i had a mental health problem, i wasnt on medication and could see a psychologist out of hospital so they had to release me. They know im suicidal but i dont tell them about plans anymore but they know it will happen. Just trying to cover themselves i guess. The doctor in the hospital wouldnt give me leave but did others, i asked why he said well i think your more serious about ending your life. So yeah if i dont show monday they will assume ive done it and if im found ill be sectioned as a risk to myself. Its one day, ill be dead wednesday night

 

[Roph]

I hope you find the peace you're seeking.

 

[loz]

I'm glad you found a method you are happy with. Safe travels <3

 

[bigj75]

I'll miss you

 

[Retched]

I hope your plan brings you peace.

 

[BurningLights]

Food luck my friend, I know that feeling all too well, i hope you find what you are looking for, and enjoy your party :)

 

[1234dave]

I hope you find the peace you truly deserve.

I'm jealous of your one last blow out, enjoy it