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- Aug 18, 2020
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I hate some parts of my outer appearance. For example my teeth are quite ugly.
Though I am pretty happy about my weight. I think I have atypical anorexia. Due to past medication I could barely it anything without gaining weight. This was kind of a torture that lasted 1 year. I hope I won't need the medication anymore but it is not fully clear. I am scared. ( I wrote a thread once about it here in recovery,)
But for now I enjoy being able to eat more stuff without gaining weight.
I was very obese as a child and teenger. I was horribly bullied in school due to it. It left very deep scars that will never heal.
I am still eating mostly very healthy food. But sometimes I can allow myself to eat yummy unhealthy food. WIth this former medication this was impossible.
I could talk more about stuff I hate about my outer appearance. Though this is a recovery thread. Moreover I am a little bit scared this would make it easier to get doxxed. Though all in all I like my current outer appearance. But mentally I am a wreck.
Oh I should explain what atypical anorexia means. I am extremely obsessed by my weight. My therapist did not give me the diagnosis someone else once suspected it. I weigh myself roundabout 5-8 times a day. And the fact that I endured 1 year constant hunger to keep my weight low is quite telling. My weight is low but not underweight.
I had the thought of this thread like body positivity or general about outer appearance. I also have some things which are quite unnattractive. However I also mentioned the reasons why I won't go into detail.
Though I am pretty happy about my weight. I think I have atypical anorexia. Due to past medication I could barely it anything without gaining weight. This was kind of a torture that lasted 1 year. I hope I won't need the medication anymore but it is not fully clear. I am scared. ( I wrote a thread once about it here in recovery,)
But for now I enjoy being able to eat more stuff without gaining weight.
I was very obese as a child and teenger. I was horribly bullied in school due to it. It left very deep scars that will never heal.
I am still eating mostly very healthy food. But sometimes I can allow myself to eat yummy unhealthy food. WIth this former medication this was impossible.
I could talk more about stuff I hate about my outer appearance. Though this is a recovery thread. Moreover I am a little bit scared this would make it easier to get doxxed. Though all in all I like my current outer appearance. But mentally I am a wreck.
Oh I should explain what atypical anorexia means. I am extremely obsessed by my weight. My therapist did not give me the diagnosis someone else once suspected it. I weigh myself roundabout 5-8 times a day. And the fact that I endured 1 year constant hunger to keep my weight low is quite telling. My weight is low but not underweight.
I had the thought of this thread like body positivity or general about outer appearance. I also have some things which are quite unnattractive. However I also mentioned the reasons why I won't go into detail.
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