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[Suicide47]

Can anyone please help me find some N? I'm not tech savvy and I'm not sure where to start. If you need a partner I would also like a partner but I'm a brave girl so it's not necessary. I just would like a guaranteed and calm passing.
id like to mention as well. I've tried. I've been suicidal since I was 16 and am now 23. I was going to commit in 2018 but my bf at the time saved me. I was hospitalized twice for being suicidal. Ever since I got a good job and two cats. But my bf left me (twice) and he was my whole world. I will never find a man as amazing as he was. Work isn't going well, I have no money to move. I can't afford my bills and I'm so alone. My friends don't want me around, I annoy people with my presence. I have very low self esteem and I've gained weight from the meds and I can't lose it. My life is going absolutely nowhere. I'm done. I need out. Please please help me

 

[Thereisnothing]

N is very hard to find and it is out there on the dark net, but be aware alot of it scams. It would be easier for many if was less difficult to obtain as used in euthanasia. I guess its because of this its hard to find. Know you are not alone, existence can be so hard to endure. I am totally alone.

 

[waterbottleman]

Can anyone please help me find some N? I'm not tech savvy and I'm not sure where to start. If you need a partner I would also like a partner but I'm a brave girl so it's not necessary. I just would like a guaranteed and calm passing.
id like to mention as well. I've tried. I've been suicidal since I was 16 and am now 23. I was going to commit in 2018 but my bf at the time saved me. I was hospitalized twice for being suicidal. Ever since I got a good job and two cats. But my bf left me (twice) and he was my whole world. I will never find a man as amazing as he was. Work isn't going well, I have no money to move. I can't afford my bills and I'm so alone. My friends don't want me around, I annoy people with my presence. I have very low self esteem and I've gained weight from the meds and I can't lose it. My life is going absolutely nowhere. I'm done. I need out. Please please help me

Im reading between the lines here but it sounds like to me your feelings of wanting to suicide, while I sympathize with and understand, are impulsive. I invite you to take a deep breath, step back for a second, and try to look at your situation as an outside observer.

You're only 23 and have a good job, have friends, had a good boyfriend. However right now you feel overwhelmed due to multiple negative things all occurring simultaneously.

Your issues at work can be overcome and fixed with patience and persistence, are you sure your friends don't like being around you or do you just feel like they aren't supportive enough? That said, you can always find new friends you still young enough that making friends is relatively easy.

Why do you think you'll never find a man as good as your boyfriend again? You're only 23, you're at your prime and have a ton of time left to date all sorts of men and find a great partner.

I don't see your life going nowhere, I see your life having lots of potential. I just think youre at a low point right now and feel overwhelmed. I understand and sympathize with the hopelessness, but I think if you ride it out and try to tackle each of your issues one at a time you'll see that there is hope for your life to be great.