Venting My useless rant on the worlds hunger games.

[1lastchance]

All I do is sleep and work. Do chores. Pitch in around the place. My life is misery it feels. I know there's others who would love to have my current circumstances one could argue that I have it made. But I don't deserve this. I don't have any motivation for the future. I feel lost and hopeless. Everyone tells me to just keep going. I do the best I can. But meeting others expectations of me when I don't have any motivation or expectations of myself. I want a heart attack. Im tried of existing. Im exhausted from putting in effort, only to know that Im not meeting anyones needs let alone my own. I barley make progress in my life and it's slow. But it won't mean anything because life keeps happening regardless of how much or little effort I put in. And it all just passes me up. I don't make enough to live alone and those who support me demand energy and strength and motivation from me that I barley have for myself. I want to end. I pray for it to all end because I'm a feckless fool who didn't make the right choices in life and now I'm just a burden to others and to society. The world is turning over to socialism and communism which means that I'll never be able to have a life of my own anyway. Always working as a debt slave for others who are rich and powerful. And what's the point in that? What's the point of any of it? If I have no purpose other than to be a worker ant that can be stepped on at any time. Then why not stamp me out now? The only reason they tell you keep pushing on is because they need worker class peon level people to make a profit for the higher class. We live in a real life hunger games world and the odds are never in my favor. I want this to be over already.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, being alive is certainly miserable. Humans are just slaves to the society. I see it as better to never be born in the first place as we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. I also feel tired of life. We all deserve a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing, it is cruel how the society denies us this and expects us to suffer for decades.

 

[Green Destiny]

I'm right there with you friend. Especially with how working class people are expendable tools to throw away once broken. The people at the top don't and never will give a damn about any of us. Feels like a losing battle, it's why I see very little hope for both my future and the future of the world overall. This ain't no fairytale story with a guaranteed happy ending, greed and selfishness will always hold more power and will ultimately win in the end.

 

[ClownMe]

Life is ridiculous, your average joe's sole purpose is to toil away and make money for some rich cats to get fatter.

 

[1lastchance]

Indeed it is. And this below average joe is sick of this roller coaster ride. I know many here are not religious and some are. But I am… I still want to go to heaven. But my heart and mind are full of doubts and fear. Which isn't the mark of a man of faith. I'm scared that my faith is too weak. I feel too weak. I'm a mentally immature asshole who can't make a feckless choice to do anything in life. Constantly relying on the support of others to survive. And one day I know my options and choices will be up. And my time will be over. I don't have answers for anyone, least of all for myself. I'm just a piece of shit human not worth existence.