SomewhatLoved
Bringing out the Dead and Searching for the Living
- Apr 12, 2023
- 100
I have my method planned out, letters written, and there's very few things left for me to do before I can CTB.
But I'm scared. Earlier in my "planning phase" I wanted time to speed by so that I could just do it and be over with it, but now that I've planned it out I feel super anxious about it. I've seen other threads talk about how even if you have access to the most reliable and "peaceful" or "instant" methods, suicide can still be a very scary and anxiety-inducing thing, and I think this is true.
It's scary to think about life ending, even though I feel like I don't want to continue living. I've lived nearly two decades now and things have never "ended". I think the closest thing we have all experienced to death is probably sleep, and you always wake up from sleep. It is not permanent.
Does anyone have any tips for wrestling with the anxiety associated with committing suicide?
But I'm scared. Earlier in my "planning phase" I wanted time to speed by so that I could just do it and be over with it, but now that I've planned it out I feel super anxious about it. I've seen other threads talk about how even if you have access to the most reliable and "peaceful" or "instant" methods, suicide can still be a very scary and anxiety-inducing thing, and I think this is true.
It's scary to think about life ending, even though I feel like I don't want to continue living. I've lived nearly two decades now and things have never "ended". I think the closest thing we have all experienced to death is probably sleep, and you always wake up from sleep. It is not permanent.
Does anyone have any tips for wrestling with the anxiety associated with committing suicide?