rikakim
girl anachronism
- Dec 12, 2019
- 11
this situation is confusing me a lot. i had an appointment with my therapist and accidentally told her my only future plans are to ctb. at first she basically told me that it's something for cowards and ''the easy way out'' but when she understood i'm serious about it she asked me if i wanted to start a process at a euthanasia clinic. even though it's legal in my country this caught me off guard because i'm very young and her previous comments didn't exactly make it seem like she agreed with it. I told her that in theory i'd want euthanasia but i know the process is at least 1-2 years or longer and then i could still be rejected and just have wasted my time. because of personal reasons I need to ctb sooner than that so I said i don't have that kind of time. when she left she was almost begging me to do euthanasia instead of ctb another way. it kind of feels like she's tricking me? i can't see why euthanasia would be less like ''the easy way out''. i'm just so confused right now...