sorararara
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- Feb 12, 2023
- 49
i'm just curious and i need some people to relate to
also, i'm aware of the fact that no one is obligated to be my friend, listen to my problems, or be there for me.. but i think i can talk about my frustrations? :/
i had a really close friend for about 3 years i think, and a few months ago she blocked me with no warning, and i know why.
she always told me that i could vent to her about anything, and i did.
well, the venting is what ruined our friendship. i was going through a very dark time, i tried to od, and i told her. i said goodbye and told her my plan. obviously, i didn't succeed. she called me exhausting after that incident so i stopped venting to her. i felt/feel guilty for exhausting her, she just wanted to be a good friend but she clearly wasn't ready to deal with a suicidal person. i didn't mean to put that pressure on her.
a bit of an embarrassing story, but i let this girl treat me like trash because i felt so guilty lmao.. she laughed after i told her about the most traumatic things that have happened to me, she insulted me a lot, called me slurs, etc. but it's whatever. i exhausted her, she was mean to me. idk, i think that makes us even?
it's been a few months, and now i'm incapable of making friends. it's not because i'm shy, i'm just so scared of putting someone through that again. i'm afraid i'll get too close and accidentally spill all of my problems. i can't even vent to doctors or therapists, that situation really messed me up. i considered joining this forum long before actually creating an account. i just couldn't do it because i was so scared. this section is literally MEANT for venting, but it still makes me nervous. venting is so hard for me now lol
has this happened to anyone else?
also, i'm aware of the fact that no one is obligated to be my friend, listen to my problems, or be there for me.. but i think i can talk about my frustrations? :/
i had a really close friend for about 3 years i think, and a few months ago she blocked me with no warning, and i know why.
she always told me that i could vent to her about anything, and i did.
well, the venting is what ruined our friendship. i was going through a very dark time, i tried to od, and i told her. i said goodbye and told her my plan. obviously, i didn't succeed. she called me exhausting after that incident so i stopped venting to her. i felt/feel guilty for exhausting her, she just wanted to be a good friend but she clearly wasn't ready to deal with a suicidal person. i didn't mean to put that pressure on her.
a bit of an embarrassing story, but i let this girl treat me like trash because i felt so guilty lmao.. she laughed after i told her about the most traumatic things that have happened to me, she insulted me a lot, called me slurs, etc. but it's whatever. i exhausted her, she was mean to me. idk, i think that makes us even?
it's been a few months, and now i'm incapable of making friends. it's not because i'm shy, i'm just so scared of putting someone through that again. i'm afraid i'll get too close and accidentally spill all of my problems. i can't even vent to doctors or therapists, that situation really messed me up. i considered joining this forum long before actually creating an account. i just couldn't do it because i was so scared. this section is literally MEANT for venting, but it still makes me nervous. venting is so hard for me now lol
has this happened to anyone else?