suicidal-raven
There are many of us in one mind.
- Nov 2, 2020
- 60
And I feel like it's only going to get worse. Hello, this is my first post, finally got enough points or w/e. I've been in a super disassociated state for a few weeks now, almost a month maybe. The stress of life has been wearing me down and I don't know what to do. I'm exhausted but I feel like it's not my time, not yet. There's so many things I want to do, like get married, go back to college, finally write a novel. But I feel like there's no hope for any of that now. Especially with how horrible I've been feeling. I've started to skip my one med that helps with nightmares and I'm definitely starting to have crazy uncomfortable dreams again. I feel like I deserve them, I don't know why. I guess it's because I always punish myself when I feel this way. I sh too, not just for punishment but also because I'm addicted. I guess this is just a vent. But hello everyone.