Story My SN finally arrived! (A soon to be goodbye thread)

[Oblivion Lover]

I can't express in words how happy I am! Everything's so exciting! Now I have everything I need for the SN method plus 10 lorazepam tablets to make it even more peaceful! I've been worried that it wouldn't arrive due to the fact I've never bought anything online, but it arrived in the correct time and no questions were asked. I want to leave this world as fast as I can, so I already started my 48 hour meto regimen. Hopefully, by the morning of october 18, all that my parents will find in my bedroom is a cold dead body! To be in control of your life and death that way is so enpowering! It's so exciting! To make things even better, no one in my family found it suspicious, and I was able to destroy any evidence that what I bought was SN before my mother arrives! Now the only things left to do is to considerate whether leaving a note or not and whether I should try to make it look like a natural death or not (I think my parents are stupid enough to assume that it was a natural death if I don't leave any evidence behind). Well, anyway, I'm so, so much happy that things went so well for me. This must be one of the happiest days of my pathetic life! Oh, and for those who don't believe in me (which is fair considering that I already made a goodbye thread before), I decided to post the photos of my resources:

From left to right: Metoclopramide 10mg, Cimetidine 200mg, Lorazepam 2mg, a measuring cup. SN is above them.

A close-up of my SN. A very discreet package, which came inside an every more discreet box from M&rc@d0 Libr&.

Feel free to ask any questions. I've already started my two days 10mg each 8 hours metoclopramide regimen, and I'll begin my 24 hr fasting soon, so I can give details about any nasty EPS that may be induced by meto, if any of them happen. If you're from Brazil, I can help with finding a reliable SN source, even though that can be easily done alone. I'm also up for some small talk. helps keeping me distracted while I'm not able to leave this terrible place forever.

 

[trynacbt]

Hi--this post made me excited for you. I'm hoping I'll be in the same position about a month from now! I'm also in Brazil and I've gotten the meto + tagamet; waiting on a couple of things before I go ahead and get the SN. How are you feeling about ctb'ing so soon? Seems like you're very excited (lol), but I'd love it if you kept us updated on how your feelings change/stay the same. Good luck and I'll be keeping up.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Hi--this post made me excited for you. I'm hoping I'll be in the same position about a month from now! I'm also in Brazil and I've gotten the meto + tagamet; waiting on a couple of things before I go ahead and get the SN. How are you feeling about ctb'ing so soon? Seems like you're very excited (lol), but I'd love it if you kept us updated on how your feelings change/stay the same. Good luck and I'll be keeping up.

Yes, I'm excited. A little bit anxious as well, but that can be managed with my lorazepam. If it changes I'll tell you guys. Good luck for you too, whatever path you choose!

 

[Hotsackage]

The meto and cime are are the antiemtics? I wish you luck and peace

 

[Oblivion Lover]

The meto and cime are are the antiemtics? I wish you luck and peace

No, the meto is the antiemetic, and the cimetidine is an antiacid which helps with the SN absorption by the body. Oh, and thanks for your support.

 

[Kvothe_alThor]

Mine just arrived aswell, and I'm also from Brazil. Boa sorte mano! :)

 

[Heliochrome]

Hey, so happy for you. That looks quite a chunky bag of sn although I just realised its 500 grams in weight. Plenty enough haha. Hey you even got benzos, we can't get them here unless using darkweb.

It seems like it will be smooth sailing for you at the time of your choosing. I will be following for updates, interested to know more.

Hopefully, by the morning of october 18, all that my parents will find in my bedroom is a cold dead body!

Do you have any resentment towards them?

I'm looking for about a week of free window so I can send a delayed email to the local police so they can take my body away, bit concerned about my family facing the horror of finding a dead cold body with blue lips and all, a bit sensitive on that front.

Otherwise I wish you a well ending, and may your passing be swift and painless.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Hey, so happy for you. That looks quite a chunky bag of sn although I just realised its 500 grams in weight. Plenty enough haha. Hey you even got benzos, we can't get them here unless using darkweb.

It seems like it will be smooth sailing for you at the time of your choosing. I will be following for updates, interested to know more.



Do you have any resentment towards them?

I'm looking for about a week of free window so I can send a delayed email to the local police so they can take my body away, bit concerned about my family facing the horror of finding a dead cold body with blue lips and all, a bit sensitive on that front.

Otherwise I wish you a well ending, and may your passing be swift and painless.

Thank you for your support. To answer your question, yes, I do have some resentment toward my parents. All of them hurt me in different ways. I hate my mother and father for creating me, and also for not giving me the life I deserved. I dislike my little brother for being such a jerk when I was just trying to make him a future decent adult. I hate my uncle and grandmother for being such religious fanatics and treating me like crap because I'm not christian like them. There's years of supressed hate going on for me and they will culminate in this. It's also the reason I'm not sure of whether leaving a note or not. I'm sure you had a better family than that, otherwise you'd probably be like me on that subject.

 

[Heliochrome]

Thank you for your support. To answer your question, yes, I do have some resentment toward my parents. All of them hurt me in different ways. I hate my mother and father for creating me, and also for not giving me the life I deserved. I dislike my little brother for being such a jerk when I was just trying to make him a future decent adult. I hate my uncle and grandmother for being such religious fanatics and treating me like crap because I'm not christian like them. There's years of supressed hate going on for me and they will culminate in this. It's also the reason I'm not sure of whether leaving a note or not. I'm sure you had a better family than that, otherwise you'd probably be like me on that subject.

I understand, so sorry about what you had to go through. Seems like you were well meaning, and just going your own way. I have some family members who were trying to take advantage of me in the past, and some extended family members imposing their religious views, so I relate somewhat.

However please reconsider if you're acting on impulse (only you know better), and even if you dont want to leave anything behind, I think it should help writing your feelings on paper, doesnt matter what you do after, burn it if you want. But I can tell you it feels relieving to get things off your chest. I only wish you the best. Te deseja paz.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

I understand, so sorry about what you had to go through. Seems like you were well meaning, and just going your own way. I have some family members who were trying to take advantage of me in the past, and some extended family members imposing their religious views, so I relate somewhat.

However please reconsider if you're acting on impulse (only you know better), and even if you dont want to leave anything behind, I think it should help writing your feelings on paper, doesnt matter what you do after, burn it if you want. But I can tell you it feels relieving to get things off your chest. I only wish you the best. Te deseja paz.

Don't worry, I'm not acting on impulse. My decisions were all thought over the course of many years in fact. I have indeed wrote a note, but it is in my tablet where nobody but I can see it. I'm not sure if I'm going to write it on paper, but probably not.

 

[Qdv]

I can't express in words how happy I am! Everything's so exciting! Now I have everything I need for the SN method plus 10 lorazepam tablets to make it even more peaceful! I've been worried that it wouldn't arrive due to the fact I've never bought anything online, but it arrived in the correct time and no questions were asked. I want to leave this world as fast as I can, so I already started my 48 hour meto regimen. Hopefully, by the morning of october 18, all that my parents will find in my bedroom is a cold dead body! To be in control of your life and death that way is so enpowering! It's so exciting! To make things even better, no one in my family found it suspicious, and I was able to destroy any evidence that what I bought was SN before my mother arrives! Now the only things left to do is to considerate whether leaving a note or not and whether I should try to make it look like a natural death or not (I think my parents are stupid enough to assume that it was a natural death if I don't leave any evidence behind). Well, anyway, I'm so, so much happy that things went so well for me. This must be one of the happiest days of my pathetic life! Oh, and for those who don't believe in me (which is fair considering that I already made a goodbye thread before), I decided to post the photos of my resources:
View attachment 17540
From left to right: Metoclopramide 10mg, Cimetidine 200mg, Lorazepam 2mg, a measuring cup. SN is above them.
View attachment 17541
A close-up of my SN. A very discreet package, which came inside an every more discreet box from M&rc@d0 Libr&.

Feel free to ask any questions. I've already started my two days 10mg each 8 hours metoclopramide regimen, and I'll begin my 24 hr fasting soon, so I can give details about any nasty EPS that may be induced by meto, if any of them happen. If you're from Brazil, I can help with finding a reliable SN source, even though that can be easily done alone. I'm also up for some small talk. helps keeping me distracted while I'm not able to leave this terrible place forever.

Im happy youre excited and feeling ready. Quick question is Lorazepam OTC in Brazil?

 

[sleepy dog]

If you live with many people you could easily be found in time to save you. If you don't die what will you do? What will they think happened?

 

[Rachel74]

Happy you'll find peace

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Im happy youre excited and feeling ready. Quick question is Lorazepam OTC in Brazil?

No, I got it from a pharmaceutical who is a friend to my family.

If you live with many people you could easily be found in time to save you. If you don't die what will you do? What will they think happened?

That's a fair question, but I'm not worried about being found. I'll lock the door and put some boxes behind it to make it difficult to break through. Plus, nobody is even suspecting that I'll try to kill myself, so I doubt they would be paying attention to whatever stuff may be happening in my room.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Update: took my second meto dose. Next one is 03:00 am, and then I'll begin my 24 hour fasting. No EPS so far. Guess I'm lucky with medication as I very rarely have any side effects from them.

 

[Lethe]

Good luck with your regiment, hope everything works out well for you.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Damn, I wish I had wi-fi at this moment. I really wanted to watch a Doctor Who marathon before I killed myself, or at least watch a single special episode. Sigh...

 

[SoyImbecilaburrido]

I can't express in words how happy I am! Everything's so exciting! Now I have everything I need for the SN method plus 10 lorazepam tablets to make it even more peaceful! I've been worried that it wouldn't arrive due to the fact I've never bought anything online, but it arrived in the correct time and no questions were asked. I want to leave this world as fast as I can, so I already started my 48 hour meto regimen. Hopefully, by the morning of october 18, all that my parents will find in my bedroom is a cold dead body! To be in control of your life and death that way is so enpowering! It's so exciting! To make things even better, no one in my family found it suspicious, and I was able to destroy any evidence that what I bought was SN before my mother arrives! Now the only things left to do is to considerate whether leaving a note or not and whether I should try to make it look like a natural death or not (I think my parents are stupid enough to assume that it was a natural death if I don't leave any evidence behind). Well, anyway, I'm so, so much happy that things went so well for me. This must be one of the happiest days of my pathetic life! Oh, and for those who don't believe in me (which is fair considering that I already made a goodbye thread before), I decided to post the photos of my resources:
View attachment 17540
From left to right: Metoclopramide 10mg, Cimetidine 200mg, Lorazepam 2mg, a measuring cup. SN is above them.
View attachment 17541
A close-up of my SN. A very discreet package, which came inside an every more discreet box from M&rc@d0 Libr&.

Feel free to ask any questions. I've already started my two days 10mg each 8 hours metoclopramide regimen, and I'll begin my 24 hr fasting soon, so I can give details about any nasty EPS that may be induced by meto, if any of them happen. If you're from Brazil, I can help with finding a reliable SN source, even though that can be easily done alone. I'm also up for some small talk. helps keeping me distracted while I'm not able to leave this terrible place forever.

No moriras, volveras solo a vivir la misma vida

 

[Haku]

I am so glad that you received your SN and the meds needed for it, I wish you luck in achieving your peace. I do have a question for you, where did you order your meto and antacid, and did it require you to need a prescription? I do not live in Brazil, I live in US, but I would like to try to order my meds from where you ordered yours. I plan on going the Sn route as well, maybe night night, but still buying SN, but I have trouble finding a site that is trustworthy and that is willing to sell me the antimetics. If I dont find them, I still plan on on taking SN, but with capsules, hoping I will get lucky and not vomit. But I'm not sure if luck will be on my side, so would appreciate it if you were to tell me. Thank you

 

[trynacbt]

I am so glad that you received your SN and the meds needed for it, I wish you luck in achieving your peace. I do have a question for you, where did you order your meto and antacid, and did it require you to need a prescription? I do not live in Brazil, I live in US, but I would like to try to order my meds from where you ordered yours. I plan on going the Sn route as well, maybe night night, but still buying SN, but I have trouble finding a site that is trustworthy and that is willing to sell me the antimetics. If I dont find them, I still plan on on taking SN, but with capsules, hoping I will get lucky and not vomit. But I'm not sure if luck will be on my side, so would appreciate it if you were to tell me. Thank you

At regular pharmacies in Brazil, prescriptions aren't required for meto or tagamet. They're also cheap to buy. Not sure if you could order from abroad--I'll let someone chime in on that.

 

[Haku]

At regular pharmacies in Brazil, prescriptions aren't required for meto or tagamet. They're also cheap to buy. Not sure if you could order from abroad--I'll let someone chime in on that.

Thank you for the information, and I do have friends in Sao Paulo, maybe I can make a trip over them, it would give me an excuse to visit them as well, only if it will not cost me everything I have though just to go over there. I would need to calculate the costs. Anyways thank you and I hope you have a peaceful departure, good luck friend

 

[onlyinsleep]

Thank you for your support. To answer your question, yes, I do have some resentment toward my parents. All of them hurt me in different ways. I hate my mother and father for creating me, and also for not giving me the life I deserved. I dislike my little brother for being such a jerk when I was just trying to make him a future decent adult. I hate my uncle and grandmother for being such religious fanatics and treating me like crap because I'm not christian like them. There's years of supressed hate going on for me and they will culminate in this. It's also the reason I'm not sure of whether leaving a note or not. I'm sure you had a better family than that, otherwise you'd probably be like me on that subject.

Same, I'm a victim of child and disabled adult abuse. I wish you well.

 

[snowman626]

how much SN are you going to measure out with the little cup?

 

[999888]

Será que não dá nenhum problema deixar o WhatsAPPe a marca do SN tão exposto assim, tipo uma investigação ou problemas para o fornecedor ? Enfim, boa sorte e que se liberte desse mundo nojento. Mas se puder edita e censura as informações citadas nesta foto por favor!!!
Doesn't give any problem to make WhatsAPP and email of the mark/salesman
of SN so exposed? a kind of investigation or problems for the supplier.Anyway, good luck and that you free this world. But you can edit and censor as information cited in this photo please !!!

 

[Oblivion Lover]

how much SN are you going to measure out with the little cup?

I did some calculations and the cup holds roughly 50 grams, so I'm going to fill it by half to take roughly 25 grams of SN. I prefer to take a higher dose even if it tastes worse.

Será que não dá nenhum problema deixar o WhatsAPPe a marca do SN tão exposto assim, tipo uma investigação ou problemas para o fornecedor ? Enfim, boa sorte e que se liberte desse mundo nojento. Mas se puder edita e censura as informações citadas nesta foto por favor!!!
Doesn't give any problem to make WhatsAPP and email of the mark/salesman
of SN so exposed? a kind of investigation or problems for the supplier.Anyway, good luck and that you free this world. But you can edit and censor as information cited in this photo please !!!

I don't think there's a significant problem with it, and I'm not sure if I can do anything about it now. I'll see what I can do tomorrow. Thanks for your support.

Update: Just took my third meto dose, will begin fasting now. Unfortunately, I'm not sure if I'll be able to post very often tomorrow, but so far no EPS or nasty syptmoms, but I feel my anxiety inevitably building up. Oh well. Oh, and can someone please tell me how to make consecutive posts like this stop sticking together? Thanks in advance.

 

[snowman626]

I did some calculations and the cup holds roughly 50 grams, so I'm going to fill it by half to take roughly 25 grams of SN. I prefer to take a higher dose even if it tastes worse.

do you know approximately how many tablespoons is 25g of SN? thats how much i plan to take as well

 

[fieryending]

I wish you luck. And a peaceful way out.

 

[blackflag1]

1 tablespoon should equal about 25 grams.

 

[Soul]

1 tablespoon should equal about 25 grams.

I am cognizant that SN's ml:g conversion is not 1:1, but I believe one tablespoon of it is 16-17 grams.

@Oblivion Lover, I'm sorry you've had to deal with so much. Whatever happens going forward, I wish you good outcomes. Journey well

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Late update: Took my fourth meto dose at 11:00am. I've given up on fasting 24 hours and will instead do a 8 hour fasting which is much easier. I couldn't sleep very well last night. I just want to get over with it fast. I've borrowed some money from my grandmother to get a haircut. I don't want to look too much disheveled when I go. I think that's all for now.
Edit: For some reason I can't see the photos I've posted of my resources. Were they removed?