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I know how you feel- due to various factors related to other people it is nearly four weeks before I have another window to try- every day is hard, worse than having cancer I would bet anything. I feel like crying all day, I have nausea and headaches all day, heartburn, etc- and you can't tell any of this by looking at me, unless maybe a person is very insightful about depression- a person who has had a lot of serious depression might see some signs. Every day is horrible, and I'm stuck here for three and a half weeks minimum. I'd rather be burned alive than go through this, at least it wouldn't last as long- but I won't use that method because if it fails then your life is a million times worse. If I knew it would work I would do it. The sad thing is if I knew in my 20s what I know know my life would have turned out very well. That's why I do think people under 30, or even under 40, should make more effort than someone older to turn things around, because you really may have more opportunities to turn things around.
