My setup

[shango]

Does this look good? I plan on taking a stat dose of 30mg of meto, then 15 minutes later take the antacid and then 45 minutes after the antacid I will take 20g of SN. If I throw up, I'm taking extra doses. I'm in a hotel and wont be disturbed the entire night. Is this foolproof?

 

[Jean4]

I am sorry I can't answer your question. Can I ask, and feel free not to answer... what drove you to this. Also is there is a reason you are Shango and Not Chango? ;)

 

[shango]

I am sorry I can't answer your question. Can I ask, and feel free not to answer... what drove you to this. Also is there is a reason you are Shango and Not Chango? ;)

A lot really. I feel like I'm a pretty shitty person and no one really wants or cares about me. There was a situation that involves my best friend and a girl I really liked and she chose him because he had a better personality I guess. It kinda made me really insecure about myself. Not only that, but I kinda ruined all my relationships with everyone because of my other life choices. I was diagnosed with autism as a child and I think that played a role into my poor life decisions. But anyways, I chose shango because I've used that username since i was a child on runescape lol. But that's neither here nor there.

 

[Jean4]

A lot really. I feel like I'm a pretty shitty person and no one really wants or cares about me. There was a situation that involves my best friend and a girl I really liked and she chose him because he had a better personality I guess. It kinda made me really insecure about myself. Not only that, but I kinda ruined all my relationships with everyone because of my other life choices. I was diagnosed with autism as a child and I think that played a role into my poor life decisions. But anyways, I chose shango because I've used that username since i was a child on runescape lol. But that's neither here nor there.

Ah. I am a daughter of Oshun, so I thought it was Santaria related.

You don't know me, but you are not a shitty person and I care. I do know what it is like to feel that way. I don't have a best friend. I have never had friends, and I have not had a boyfriend (I am a female) since 1999 lol. So I do understand.

People choose things for many reasons. It may have nothing to do with personality. Chemistry is chemistry. You have it or you don't. Nothing wrong with you. I am sure you are great. Sometimes, you just like somebody as a friend.

We have all made poor life decisions, and do not have autistic to deal with.

I am not trying to stop you. It isn't my place. I just want you to make sure it isn't a spur of the moment thing, and know. There are people on this forum who do understand how you feel. We have been there.... and we care :) <3

Sometimes it is good just to hear from somebody that we care about you, and you matter.

 

[shango]

Ah. I am a daughter of Oshun, so I thought it was Santaria related.

You don't know me, but you are not a shitty person and I care. I do know what it is like to feel that way. I don't have a best friend. I have never had friends, and I have not had a boyfriend (I am a female) since 1999 lol. So I do understand.

People choose things for many reasons. It may have nothing to do with personality. Chemistry is chemistry. You have it or you don't. Nothing wrong with you. I am sure you are great. Sometimes, you just like somebody as a friend.

We have all made poor life decisions, and do not have autistic to deal with.

I am not trying to stop you. It isn't my place. I just want you to make sure it isn't a spur of the moment thing, and know. There are people on this forum who do understand how you feel. We have been there.... and we care :) <3

Sometimes it is good just to hear from somebody that we care about you, and you matter.

Actually it is santeria related, I'm afro latino. But I just use the name for most of my online usernames lol. But anyways, even if it is about chemistry, I've never had it I guess. Because I got really close to her and she still chose someone else. I've been rejected most of my life as well. So I feel like there isnt any hope for me anymore for me. Along with the poor life choices, I find it hard to concentrate in my field of work now, like I have massive brain fog and I cannot think straight anymore. To some it might be pretty rash, but I feel extremely uncomfortable with being myself now and I've always had a huge hatred towards myself but now it reached its peak and really cannot take it anymore

 

[Jean4]

Actually it is santeria related, I'm afro latino. But I just use the name for most of my online usernames lol. But anyways, even if it is about chemistry, I've never had it I guess. Because I got really close to her and she still chose someone else. I've been rejected most of my life as well. So I feel like there isnt any hope for me anymore for me. Along with the poor life choices, I find it hard to concentrate in my field of work now, like I have massive brain fog and I cannot think straight anymore. To some it might be pretty rash, but I feel extremely uncomfortable with being myself now and I've always had a huge hatred towards myself but now it reached its peak and really cannot take it anymore

Like I said. I am not trying to stop you. It isn't my place. Like you said, it sounds spur of the moment. Just make absolutely sure, and it is OK not to and change your mind.

 

[woxihuanni]

It's not foolproof because you're going for a stat dose. But apart from that, I wouldn't want to drink mine at the peak of self hatred and rejection. I'd want it to be an at least somewhat calm decision. Wishing you the best whatever path you choose to take.

 

[Rachel74]

Remember we are here for you whatever path you chose. Your set to looks to be good and you've done your research

 

[shango]

It's not foolproof because you're going for a stat dose. But apart from that, I wouldn't want to drink mine at the peak of self hatred and rejection. I'd want it to be an at least somewhat calm decision. Wishing you the best whatever path you choose to take.

Well I've been planning this for around 2 months now. I was rejected at the beginning of this year. Like I'm kinda over it, but I feel like there isnt much left for me. I'm fairly calm, which kinda scares me but I still think I'm gonna go through with it.
Also I feel like the 42 hour meto regimen is kinda useless, but I dont really know. If I throw up, I'm taking another dose.

 

[trynacbt]

Yes, we are here no matter what. Good luck and keep us updated if you can. Rest easy if that is what it comes to.

 

[LonelyLight]

I hope it all goes as you hope I'm here if you need to talk