My s/o worked out my intentions

[Moon Flower]

He broke down and begged me not to do this. I guess my plan is on hold for now because I'd pretty much have to have a heart of ice to follow through tonight after how he spoke to me. He doesn't know my sn exists or even what it is, so maybe I can use this time to actually obtain meto

 

[trynacbt]

How did he figure it out? I'm sorry...

 

[Moon Flower]

How did he figure it out? I'm sorry...

I guess since I've been talking about death more and making morbid jokes, plus all the suicides close to me were this time of year

 

[Hunter100]

People close to us can read us pretty easily. You probably are giving off calls for help even though you might not recognize them yourself. I'd take this time to really evaluate your life and if it's worth saving. Especially if you're in good health and obviously have people around you who care. Just a thought. I am glad you have someone with you that cares about your wellbeing and loves you.

 

[Moon Flower]

People close to us can read us pretty easily. You probably are giving off calls for help even though you might not recognize them yourself. I'd take this time to really evaluate your life and if it's worth saving. Especially if you're in good health and obviously have people around you who care. Just a thought. I am glad you have someone with you that cares about your wellbeing and loves you.

Yeah I might just have to give this self preservation thing a shot even if it is only for someone else at first, idk how I feel right now honestly

 

[trynacbt]

I'm glad you have your s/o with you, and I wish you both the best no matter what happens

 

[CrushedHopes]

I think you ought to think really, really, really hard if you want to CTB or not. Your SO really cares about you, so you have to evaluate if it's worth having to keep living for his sake, or if your pain really is too much to bear that you'd still want to CTB, anyway.

 

[Stan]

So sorry. At least you know you are truly loved and that alone must mean something to you. Stay strong.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Other people can read us better than we can read ourselves. You may have felt normal and thought you were behaving as you normally do. You weren't.

For blessing or curse. Welcome back and good luck whatever your course may be.

Consider yourself lucky you have someone who loves you as he does. I lost a great woman due to my ineptitude. I haven't seen that since. Cherish it.

 

[Done at Fifty]

The silver lining is that he is somewhat prepared now. He won't be as surprised when you do go.

 

[Hotsackage]

My brain. Ocd is a giant whore