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sewycidial
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- Jan 13, 2024
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I was drinking and smoking weed all day sitting on here suicidal about losing my family and ex gf car and feeling really ugly even bought SN. Watching videos of people even commiting suicide to cope.
I have been going to the gym every singly day even running there, tapered down and quit all drugs and alchohol. (i've been addicted to pot for 11 years straight) started getting ontop of school, cut out youtube and netflix replaced it with reading and started listening to positive things. Started doing self care with my skin and hair. I started an online store and I feel great, I never match with girls on dating apps that are even close to my type. changed my pictures up and i actually got a match with a pretty nurse. This is drastic from before I feel really motivated on this recovery path. I even started praying everyday when things start to get tough again. it's only been a week since recovery. I
I was so suicidal before and would say F god aswell if he existed and couldn't stand another day living like that.
I feel really bad about seeing goodbye threads from people I pm'd. Recovery is possible I thought i'd never feel better and that's what depression/heartbreak/loss does to you. you only got 1 life and i truely didnt wanna die i just wanted a better situation.
I believe you can be in a better situation and mood too.
I have been going to the gym every singly day even running there, tapered down and quit all drugs and alchohol. (i've been addicted to pot for 11 years straight) started getting ontop of school, cut out youtube and netflix replaced it with reading and started listening to positive things. Started doing self care with my skin and hair. I started an online store and I feel great, I never match with girls on dating apps that are even close to my type. changed my pictures up and i actually got a match with a pretty nurse. This is drastic from before I feel really motivated on this recovery path. I even started praying everyday when things start to get tough again. it's only been a week since recovery. I
I was so suicidal before and would say F god aswell if he existed and couldn't stand another day living like that.
I feel really bad about seeing goodbye threads from people I pm'd. Recovery is possible I thought i'd never feel better and that's what depression/heartbreak/loss does to you. you only got 1 life and i truely didnt wanna die i just wanted a better situation.
I believe you can be in a better situation and mood too.