Venting My rant about survival instinct

[Wanderer]

It's funny how people say that life holds no meaning. I feel no sense of purpose, yet I have this strong instinct to keep going.

I don't fear the pain related to dying, I actually want to make myself suffer as much as possible. I have fantasies of skinning myself alive while millions of people watch. I want to make my death something grand, and I want everyone to see it. But I can't make this happen as it's not the pain while dying that hinders me but rather the idea of dying in and of itself.

This instinct I have to live is, ironically enough, ruining my life. I don't know when it will go away and let me die. I'm really desperate for some form of relief. Living is unbearable.

 

[fox_wannabe]

age old question: how to overcome survival instinct. Welcome to sanctioned suicide @Wanderer

 

[FuneralCry]

It is difficult to ctb, as after all we are programmed to survive. It is the way we have evolved. We deserve an option of euthanasia, as then we will not have to deal with the survival instinct. I'm sorry that things are so unbearable. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[forgotten15]

SI is the only reason I am still here. I absolutely hate that we have it in us.