My parents reaction

[saturn1402]

My SN arrived today and I had an urge to talk to my parents.

With my parents I had not the greatest relationship but I think they improved so much as parents when I became an adult and move abroad.

They know almost everything about what I am going through. I trust them and they have really seen me at my worst in the past half a year.
I told them about having something that could make ctb more peaceful and I poured my heart out and told them about my pain.

my parents told me: "we have seen your struggles. We have seen how much you have been fighting. We might not understand the pain but we see it, every day for many months. As much as we want you alive and with us, do what you feel it's the best choice for you. We pray for you every day but if anything happens to you, we knew the pain was unbearable "

I feel guilty and selfish for opening up so much but at the same time i just couldn't look in their eyes and feel like i was lying to them or hiding things from them ..

 

[deadbidaylight]

You are extremely lucky that you are able to speak freely with your family about your feelings and possible intentions without sending you to a psych ward. You are even more lucky that your family supports any decision you come to. That's very rare, and a gift.

 

[saturn1402]

You are extremely lucky that you are able to speak freely with your family about your feelings and possible intentions without sending you to a psych ward. You are even more lucky that your family supports any decision you come to. That's very rare, and a gift.

I know I am. I never thought they would be so open to listen and not judge. We had many issues when I was growing up. I hid it for a while but I wouldn't have made it alive until now if I didn't open up to someone… my ex got me admitted in a psych ward when I opened up about my suicide ideation… my parents saw how it traumatised me and also they saw that I really tried anything to get better.

The best thing is my mum actually told me that she is grateful I made her aware of everything because the worst for her would be if I ctb and wouldn't say anything. At least knowing what I am going through made them try anything to support me.

I ts so sad that most people don't have parents or close ones to open up without being forced into a psych ward.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think you were all very brave about it. It takes a lot of courage to tell people. It's very hard to gauge how they might react. I'm sure you did it out of love and concern- to warn them. Their response was beautiful.

 

[FishRain3469]

Wow, very beautiful indeed. What a blessing to truly behold. I'd certainly be in a psych ward / inpatient if I told my parents.

Thoughts and prayers to you in Whatever may happen, ♥

 

[Raven2]

What a lovely and empathetic response from your parents.