dangerstars
lover, hopeless wannabe.
- Nov 6, 2025
- 18
Yeah... i cut myself on my upper arm and for some reason thought it was a good idea to wear really short sleeves and my mom saw my less bad arm but she still saw. i heard her talking with my dad and seems like they suspect self harm... just what i needed in time for the new year.
My mom was drunk when she saw it but i don't think she's gonna forget. the worst thing is i know this impacts every interaction i have with my parents now... i've talked to my dad a bit and it already seems different and i just feel so sick
The worst part is just that i hate having serious conversations with my mom. no matter how good i am at lying, i cannot hold back tears. i always end up crying. i don't wanna do this
But whenever she does bring it up my first strategy is that maybe she'll believe me if i deny it before she even asks, like "i realized it kind of looks like i cut myself or something haha, that'd be concerning. i dunno what's going on there" and if that fails "it was like once a really long time ago, mostly out of morbid curiosity." the cuts she saw are a month or so old so maybe i can convince her they're older than they are.
I just hope she doesn't look at my other arm, that one's worse. not like she can do much... not the end of the world, i just don't want to go through this.
cheers to hoping i can actually move out this year.
My mom was drunk when she saw it but i don't think she's gonna forget. the worst thing is i know this impacts every interaction i have with my parents now... i've talked to my dad a bit and it already seems different and i just feel so sick
The worst part is just that i hate having serious conversations with my mom. no matter how good i am at lying, i cannot hold back tears. i always end up crying. i don't wanna do this
But whenever she does bring it up my first strategy is that maybe she'll believe me if i deny it before she even asks, like "i realized it kind of looks like i cut myself or something haha, that'd be concerning. i dunno what's going on there" and if that fails "it was like once a really long time ago, mostly out of morbid curiosity." the cuts she saw are a month or so old so maybe i can convince her they're older than they are.
I just hope she doesn't look at my other arm, that one's worse. not like she can do much... not the end of the world, i just don't want to go through this.
cheers to hoping i can actually move out this year.
