My parents created an ignorant behmoth

[1up]

Sorry in advance as my post will probably be self pitying.

I feel so much disgust and self hatred over myself, as I have almost every undesirable personality trait. I have done many reprehensible and hurtful things out of sheer ignorance.

Other times I was not even acting out of ignorance, but I still did bad things and rationalised my behavior. Not to mention the fact that I am extremely dumb, to a degree that it makes functioning daily difficult. I mess up the most basic tasks and I frequently have brain spasms.

My brain is driven by materialism and momentary escapisms and I hate it, yet I still partake in actions that perpetuate these vices.

Ultimately, my parents created a disgusting person, and people concur. I just wish I never existed.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I am just like you. I loath myself and everyone loathes me because I am loathsome. I dont understand if there is a purpose behind life why people like me should exist. We are with bad personaluty traits, burden, negative and we suck. I feel im entitled to stop myself from existing. It is a tough way to be to hate yourself and for good reasons.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish I never existed. I mean we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. I view my existence as a mistake. It is pointless me being here. Self hatred is painful, I understand that, even know all my negative emotions are directed towards existence in general now, as it is the cause of all suffering. I wish you well.