my own mother called the cops on me

[cherrybubblegum]

i'm scared - i'm young. i feel empty. i haven't eaten in almost 24 hours. the world isn't safe for me anymore
i'm alone now. being alone is worse than death.
i've been kicked out of my house. again. i'm at a friends house but my time is running out. i'm praying that god will understand. angry that i was robbed of the support i needed. and now i'm alone.
i want to try partial hanging. anything really. if anyone wanted to snuff me out, now is your time. my body is no longer mine. i'm scared they're watching me. even typing this is making me nervous. victims always get blamed.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a horrible situation to be trapped in, but anyway I wish you the best. It's such a cruel, hellish world we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own.

 

[Letgo]

How are you? Are you ok?

 

[cherrybubblegum]

That sounds like such a horrible situation to be trapped in, but anyway I wish you the best. It's such a cruel, hellish world we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own.

thank you - i'm stuck here now. i'm hoping that tonight i will find the will to let myself go. or that by some freak event, someone murders me. anything to get out of this

How are you? Are you ok?

not good at all - i haven't eaten or taken my meds today. doesn't feel like there's a point. my own friend whose room im staying in left to go to her boyfriends. i had no energy to beg her to stay. to tell her i'm scared to be alone right now. to tell her that im going to die. im going to figure out how to die.

 

[jorheslen428]

thank you - i'm stuck here now. i'm hoping that tonight i will find the will to let myself go. or that by some freak event, someone murders me. anything to get out of this

not good at all - i haven't eaten or taken my meds today. doesn't feel like there's a point. my own friend whose room im staying in left to go to her boyfriends. i had no energy to beg her to stay. to tell her i'm scared to be alone right now. to tell her that im going to die. im going to figure out how to die.

Please take your meds for the sole reason that withdrawal is hell incarnate for many psych drugs and you don't need that on top of everything else right now.

 

[GasMonkey]

im going to figure out how to die.

Long path ahead.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

This must be totally horrible. I wish you all the best!

 

[PaYo]

Dud you are not alone. My mother i making hell out of my life for the past 20 or so years. So you are not alone. I wish you the best. Forgive her, like christ. No matter how horrible person she is forgive her. That the only way. And when you grow enough. I dont know how old are you. Find your own place. And leave your mom.

 

[cherrybubblegum]

Dud you are not alone. My mother i making hell out of my life for the past 20 or so years. So you are not alone. I wish you the best. Forgive her, like christ. No matter how horrible person she is forgive her. That the only way. And when you grow enough. I dont know how old are you. Find your own place. And leave your mom.

that's my plan. i signed my lease and am moving in early june. it's so hard to feel like you have the energy to help yourself. i'm getting my own phone line today and moving into my own place soon. i just have to stay alive and get there. i'm gonna try.

 

[msocks]

that's my plan. i signed my lease and am moving in early june. it's so hard to feel like you have the energy to help yourself. i'm getting my own phone line today and moving into my own place soon. i just have to stay alive and get there. i'm gonna try.

I'm glad things are progressing a bit better. And pretty quickly too! I doubt I could have dragged my ass out of bed today if I had a weekend like you had.

It can be so hard to get away from abusers especially when they're family. Choosing your own path can be scary for sure but also empowering. We're here for you if you need to talk or just vent.

 

[SilentSadness]

What a terrible mother. It is horrible what you have gone through, and it must be a frightening situation. Unfortunately, people mistreat others all the time in this society. Suicide is also far too difficult, so if you're going to try then I hope you have more luck than me. I have also had to deal with unempathetic people and it's such a dreadful experience.

 

[Brokensaddle]

I'm sorry to had to experience this. I understand the your feelings of betrayal. It's disgusting what happened. I've been there and do wish things get better for you

 

[cherrybubblegum]

I'm sorry to had to experience this. I understand the your feelings of betrayal. It's disgusting what happened. I've been there and do wish things get better for you

How did you get through it? I keep finding myself losing hope.

 

[Brokensaddle]

How did you get through it? I keep finding myself losing hope.

My living situation is extremely complicated but I suggest moving out and having no contact. Hopefully you'll meet people that support and want the best for you

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

im sorry she did that to you, i dont get why people do this shit, it really doesnt help they think theyre helping or they pretend to be so they can feel better about themselves but in reality they just fuck you over