Venting My only option is an 80 foot cliff.

[SHThrowAway213]

I can't order SN again as husband found last batch
N is too expensive.
Can't get a gun.
Can't get partial hanging right and nowhere to do full hanging.
There is a 200 foot cliff an hour away but I don't have the time nor money to get there.
My only option is the 80 foot cliff, but I'm likely to survive it.
I'm stuck and don't know what to do.
This is so frustrating.

 

[jgm63]

If ordering things to your home address is an issue, could you get a PO Box ?
eg try googling : po box near me

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

My thoughts are with you... I can imagine how frustrating it is.... I often feel frustrated I am not ready to leave yet. . *hugs*

 

[BipolarExpat]

I know how hard it is SHT.
I'm very discouraged too and have no viable methods within reach, but please...80 feet is just too uncertain.

Dig deeper for some patience until something more certain becomes tangible.

I know it's overwhelming. I truly do.

 

[AlreadyGone]

My advice is to be patient until an opportunity presents itself.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

It's a very tough situation to be in.
I don't want to be patient anymore I just want to end it

 

[Mr2005]

It's a very tough situation to be in.
I don't want to be patient anymore I just want to end it

I see you've been here longer than me and I feel much the same way. What am I still doing here? A lot of people have left and there's no reason to continue using the forum unless I hope to get better which I don't (I wish I could but that's a different thing). Thankfully I have SN now but it took me a long time to get there. It was never my top choice but better than jumping off a cliff. I hope you find another way. It's evil that we should ever be in a position to even have to consider it. Backed into a corner. Caught between a rock and a hard place

 

[Ghost2211]

That must be very frustrating. personally if they tried to trap me like that I would do artery severing or shallow water blackout.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

I can't order SN again as husband found last batch
N is too expensive.
Can't get a gun.
Can't get partial hanging right and nowhere to do full hanging.
There is a 200 foot cliff an hour away but I don't have the time nor money to get there.
My only option is the 80 foot cliff, but I'm likely to survive it.
I'm stuck and don't know what to do.
This is so frustrating.

I know how it feels to have your options so limited due to where you're at. It's annoying and frustrating and definitely painful, my method is to bleed out and I found a place I shouldn't be found (hopefully) I hope you find what you are looking for