Velvet Fortress
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- Dec 13, 2021
- 73
So basically I chickened out of using SN because I failed at getting dopamine blockers. The only other option I got is this rope I've had for a while.
I tried the noose, pulled with some force upwards for testing and immediately panic started settling in, and I found the feeling of the rope choking me horrible and terror inducing
I really want to do partial hanging but I just can't get over that feeling despite really wanting to die. I wanted to choose SN or Nitrogen because they are way more peaceful and I could die while lying in bed, hugging pillows, but obviously I'm clapped by difficulty of access. I just can't bring myself to hang myself lile this and I hate it.
I'm considering getting really drunk to get over the survival instinct but something tells me I probably won't follow through either.
Does anybody have suggestions?
I tried the noose, pulled with some force upwards for testing and immediately panic started settling in, and I found the feeling of the rope choking me horrible and terror inducing
I really want to do partial hanging but I just can't get over that feeling despite really wanting to die. I wanted to choose SN or Nitrogen because they are way more peaceful and I could die while lying in bed, hugging pillows, but obviously I'm clapped by difficulty of access. I just can't bring myself to hang myself lile this and I hate it.
I'm considering getting really drunk to get over the survival instinct but something tells me I probably won't follow through either.
Does anybody have suggestions?