My OCD is killing me. I can't wear any clothes, I feel like my body is put together the wrong way. Everything I wear there's something wrong. I can't even explain it properly. I begun telling people I can't go on like this. It helps to put words on it. They understand I don't want to live anymore. But it hurts my heart that I'm in this hell all the time. All other people just puts clothes on every day and feel comfortable about. I constantly feel unpleasant. My OCD is killing me. Literally. I really just want to die. I want to die all the time. I'm saving up for N at this moment. I'm getting the anti-emetics soon and will try it out. I want out of this body. Out of this world. I wanna have peace. My soul needs peace.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,745
I'm sorry you are suffering so much. I understand it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore. Life really is so horrible. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
I am so envy of the people who just puts clothes on everyday and feel comfortable. I hate my desease. I want to CTB so much all the time
I have OCD too, I think it can be hereditary.
None in my family has it. But it came with the genes. No doubt. My unpleasantness, OCD and anxiety came from the genes.
Midgardsorm
Paragon
- Apr 28, 2020
- 917
I'm sorry you're suffering on this horrible nightmare that is ocd.
I know how OCD can destroy a life. I'm almost losing my job because of it.
The worst thing is that people and even you think that you are having 'fun' with it, when you just want to blow your head off with a gun.
Unfortunately it's still treated as "Little problem" even though it has a history of being the reason for some people's deaths, like Howard Hughes.
(The scene of the movie "The Aviator" where he sits on the chair, naked repeating words gives me creeps every time. There were days I was almost like that. )
Yes. Therapy works, SSRI might work, but ultimately, it's a problem that has no definitive cure.
Yet, the exposure can help. Just remember to be REALLY careful when doing or it might worsen the situation.
I wish you peace.
I know how OCD can destroy a life. I'm almost losing my job because of it.
The worst thing is that people and even you think that you are having 'fun' with it, when you just want to blow your head off with a gun.
Unfortunately it's still treated as "Little problem" even though it has a history of being the reason for some people's deaths, like Howard Hughes.
(The scene of the movie "The Aviator" where he sits on the chair, naked repeating words gives me creeps every time. There were days I was almost like that. )
Yes. Therapy works, SSRI might work, but ultimately, it's a problem that has no definitive cure.
Yet, the exposure can help. Just remember to be REALLY careful when doing or it might worsen the situation.
I wish you peace.
