Venting My now retired therapist was the only person I could have a good conversation about suicide with.

[archipelago]

It makes me very sad.

He knew me well enough that he wouldn't constantly ask me each time, 'how does that make you feel' or some variation of that bullshit.

I could talk in detail, without judgement, and pretty calmly about it. Over 5 years, there were only a few times where he did the standard check of 'are you going to harm yourself immediately'.

I can't explain how refreshing it was. To have an honest, in-depth conversation about it. Without being looked at like something was wrong with me.

Fuck I miss talking to him so much.

Just wanted a place to share this, since no other person irl would get it.

 

[JoeFailure]

Sorry to hear you lost that. I have a therapist right now that's comfortable with me talking about it, she's pretty cool. It's not her fault she can't really help me because nothing/nobody can, but she tries and she listens. That's all I can really ask.

But I get it. I'm down to talk about it if you need to.

 

[archipelago]

Thanks Joe. My new therapist is nice but it just isn't the same, so I stopped appointments for now. Also because it would be easier to hide wanting to ctb soon

 

[FuneralCry]

It is understandable, how you feel. Having somebody to talk to like that who understands can be really beneficial to us. It can be a struggle for many people finding the right therapist.