braintorture
2007 - 2025
- Oct 19, 2025
- 131
Hello!
I'm brain torture, guy that failed my suicide attempt after a hiker caught me hanging and called the cops.
I ended in the ward temporarily and managed to bullshit and get out pretty quick.
sanctioned-suicide.net
Now I'm in a hotel room alone far away from where that happened, and my mom is clueless.
The plan for tomorrow is I know a store that sells one of the ropes I need to ctb, and I'm going to go there to pick it up (1h of bus riding) pretty fast because the store opens at 9 am, I quickly go buy the rope then I head back to the hotel. I lied to my mom saying I'll stay up late and wake up late - and she has no idea I'm doing this.
So. That means I'll have the rope, aka the mean, and I'll get it tomorrow morning and hide it in my bag.
from there I have 3 options:
- Catch the bus the same night (I'll stay in a hotel room again, and there are bunk beds and also you get the PIN code to exit or enter anytime in the night, giving me a good 12+ hours to run and go hang in the middle of the night) but in a forest nearby OR hang myself in the room (too risky)
- catch the bus the same night But I go to Paris or another major city (I know urbex and abandoned spots) and ctb there
- catch the bus at a later date (fuck no)
Also, the 28th is my ex's birthday and the date I never want to exceed. Think of it as my 32 integer limit. I don't wanna see 2026 and go past that date.
This time - I'm alone, pretty secure and I have managed to get a few 200 bucks from my mom to organize all of it.
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Key takeaways:
If you consider catching the bus by hanging yourself - you should read this.
I got caught pretty stupidly due to a few mistakes you shouldn't do. I could have ended as a vegetable - but I got caught right as the rope was on my neck and I was choking. (Lucky and unlucky I was)
Rules:
1. Hang yourself IN THE NIGHT. Do not do it in the morning or evening. There's always random hikers or people that can find you. I was up 1500m+ in the mountains and I still got randomly caught by a dude.
2. Find a spot that's ISOLATED. Far away from roads and any signal. Urbex spots are great starting points.
3. Do not keep your SIM card. Use a burner phone to distract authorities or a burner sim you pay with CASH. You can be geolocated pretty fast and your credit card payments can be used to trace you.
4. Don't warn people you'll ctb. Doing this caused me to get put on a missing persons list and get the cops looking for me. 3 different people filed me as a missing person and that accelerated them finding me. The less they know, the more time you have.
5. Be quick. Don't act suspect, make sure to prepare everything that you can do in 1 day. Time is crucial if you wish to successfully ctb without getting caught.
6. Do it only if you're certain. There's no going back once you started unless you're ready for heck of a ride in the psych ward. You were warned!
7. Find the right tree - https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/trees-to-use-for-hanging-from-a-tree-expert.76256/
8. Learn how to do the knot and tie before you actually do it on a tree. It took me a few tries to learn how to do it properly but I managed to do it after a few tries in my corner alone. This will save you plenty of time.
9. Ensure no one is around you once you've set up the rope for a good hour if needed - but depending on the time and spot you shouldn't be finding people around late at night.
10. Make sure your rope can withstand at least twice of your weight.
11. If there's a rope excess, use it to strengthen the suspension. My current setup had the left side going up to pull myself up and the knot above my neck to strengthen the choke, and it worked pretty well for both full and partial suspension. Make sure to use your hand or test to see how rigid it is and apply pressure.
12. If you're scared to do it or your SI kicks in, I recommend you play your favorite song and only focus on the song - to me that helped me gather the courage to do it.
———
Anyways folks, hopefully this time I will succeed. I got away with my failed attempt pretty easily and I won't mess up this one.
I will keep you posted via this thread!
I'm brain torture, guy that failed my suicide attempt after a hiker caught me hanging and called the cops.
I ended in the ward temporarily and managed to bullshit and get out pretty quick.
Catching the bus today
Hello Today is the day. I recorded my goodbye video and I have my vodka and rope ready. I’m finally getting peace. I walked 1 hour and 30 mins in total and I’m at 1200m in height in the mountains. I won’t be found. My method is partial suspension hanging and jumping if it fails. Thank...
sanctioned-suicide.net
Now I'm in a hotel room alone far away from where that happened, and my mom is clueless.
The plan for tomorrow is I know a store that sells one of the ropes I need to ctb, and I'm going to go there to pick it up (1h of bus riding) pretty fast because the store opens at 9 am, I quickly go buy the rope then I head back to the hotel. I lied to my mom saying I'll stay up late and wake up late - and she has no idea I'm doing this.
So. That means I'll have the rope, aka the mean, and I'll get it tomorrow morning and hide it in my bag.
from there I have 3 options:
- Catch the bus the same night (I'll stay in a hotel room again, and there are bunk beds and also you get the PIN code to exit or enter anytime in the night, giving me a good 12+ hours to run and go hang in the middle of the night) but in a forest nearby OR hang myself in the room (too risky)
- catch the bus the same night But I go to Paris or another major city (I know urbex and abandoned spots) and ctb there
- catch the bus at a later date (fuck no)
Also, the 28th is my ex's birthday and the date I never want to exceed. Think of it as my 32 integer limit. I don't wanna see 2026 and go past that date.
This time - I'm alone, pretty secure and I have managed to get a few 200 bucks from my mom to organize all of it.
———
Key takeaways:
If you consider catching the bus by hanging yourself - you should read this.
I got caught pretty stupidly due to a few mistakes you shouldn't do. I could have ended as a vegetable - but I got caught right as the rope was on my neck and I was choking. (Lucky and unlucky I was)
Rules:
1. Hang yourself IN THE NIGHT. Do not do it in the morning or evening. There's always random hikers or people that can find you. I was up 1500m+ in the mountains and I still got randomly caught by a dude.
2. Find a spot that's ISOLATED. Far away from roads and any signal. Urbex spots are great starting points.
3. Do not keep your SIM card. Use a burner phone to distract authorities or a burner sim you pay with CASH. You can be geolocated pretty fast and your credit card payments can be used to trace you.
4. Don't warn people you'll ctb. Doing this caused me to get put on a missing persons list and get the cops looking for me. 3 different people filed me as a missing person and that accelerated them finding me. The less they know, the more time you have.
5. Be quick. Don't act suspect, make sure to prepare everything that you can do in 1 day. Time is crucial if you wish to successfully ctb without getting caught.
6. Do it only if you're certain. There's no going back once you started unless you're ready for heck of a ride in the psych ward. You were warned!
7. Find the right tree - https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/trees-to-use-for-hanging-from-a-tree-expert.76256/
8. Learn how to do the knot and tie before you actually do it on a tree. It took me a few tries to learn how to do it properly but I managed to do it after a few tries in my corner alone. This will save you plenty of time.
9. Ensure no one is around you once you've set up the rope for a good hour if needed - but depending on the time and spot you shouldn't be finding people around late at night.
10. Make sure your rope can withstand at least twice of your weight.
11. If there's a rope excess, use it to strengthen the suspension. My current setup had the left side going up to pull myself up and the knot above my neck to strengthen the choke, and it worked pretty well for both full and partial suspension. Make sure to use your hand or test to see how rigid it is and apply pressure.
12. If you're scared to do it or your SI kicks in, I recommend you play your favorite song and only focus on the song - to me that helped me gather the courage to do it.
———
Anyways folks, hopefully this time I will succeed. I got away with my failed attempt pretty easily and I won't mess up this one.
I will keep you posted via this thread!
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