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Enigmatic Sailor

Enigmatic Sailor

vicissitudes of fate...
Oct 29, 2021
386
It's greatly troubling that I have nothing to add to my name when I inevitably pass. I feel like I've accomplished nothing in all my years. Each day has no significant value to me. This all stinks to high heaven. I can't work anymore due to problems with my health (I get exhausted very quickly).

I just feel life rustling through my hair like the wind that blows from the deep blue skies above, and I can see things coming and going. I just wish I could've helped others in some way, but I was too chicken shit to do anything. I walk everywhere and I can feel people's judgemental gazes beating down on me and them hoping I was useful in some way.

I could never get into anything in High School due to lack of interest and didn't care what happened to me as an individual. I just wanted to get home and get drunk and pass out and wait until night to roam the streets in search of "entertainment". I don't care for tasks and objectives that people shove on me. I just want to surf and listen to music.

To sum it up; I'm just regretful that I could never function as a sophisticated hardworking member of the human condition like my other family members.

Thanks for coming to my TedTalk.
 
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chocolatebar

chocolatebar

Paragon
Jul 11, 2021
973
It's hard not to be frustrated with our lives when we don't get a role in society. If we look into it from an existential perspective, we can see that all the social structures are meaningless and yet, they usually mean a lot to us.

I used to take some comfort in knowing that being a sophisticated hardworking member of the human condition is meaningless as well and most people out there just don't fall into severe existential crisis because they have a full schedule and not even stop to think about their lives. Just give them some time to think, like the pandemic did and they all fall into collapse.

@whatevs has some interesting life expectations and goals that might help you. Mind about telling us again about it, whaevs? I rememer you talking about wanting to live like in isolated place, reading and something in these lines.
 
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AllByMyself

AllByMyself

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Jun 16, 2022
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Thank you for a most interesting Ted talk!😉
 
whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
2,912
@whatevs has some interesting life expectations and goals that might help you. Mind about telling us again about it, whaevs? I rememer you talking about wanting to live like in isolated place, reading and something in these lines.
Well these are the 'desperate measures' expectations. But even if they were these, OP would need to believe in metaphysics to have similar goals. Basically I'm convinced that the Matrix or Dark City conveyed something literal about our reality, and I would like to pierce through that veil. Another one of my life goals is feel absolutely no obligation towards society and no stress from the opinion other people have of me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,018
I'm sorry that you are in this situation. This life really is so unfair and depressing. I know that it can be awful when everything feels so hopeless. I wish you relief from suffering.
 

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