Venting My mum died yesterday and I'm drinking

[BluesRunTheGame]

That's what I'm doing.

 

[Jrmull1993]

@BluesRunTheGame

I'm extremely sorry for your loss.

 

[pls.deleteallmypost]

It's heartbreaking to read that, I'm so sorry for your loss

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

It had been coming, and I'd got to re-reading Camus' The Outsider. The opening paragraph: 'My mother died today. Or maybe yesterday, I don't know. I received a telegram from the old people's home: "Mother deceased. Funeral tomorrow. Very sincerely yours." That doesn't mean anything. It might have been yesterday.' (3)

 

[popcorn1234]

Sorry for your loss, if you need to talk to anyone, I am here

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

And perhaps the best line: 'Then he said he'd heard that Mama had died but it was something that was bound to happen one day. That was how I felt too.' (30)

 

[Jessycat2000]

I'm sorry to hear that, also here if you need..

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I mean I quote Camus because the whole notion seems absurd. A year ago she was fine but that's life I guess. Dead at 65, just retired. It makes ya think, don't it? Thanks for all your well wishes x

 

[locked*n*loaded]

My heart goes out to you. I know what you're going through. My mom died last year and I'm still grieving.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

My heart goes out to you. I know what you're going through. My mom died last year and I'm still grieving.

How was it with yours? (You def don't have to answer.) My mum's was a pretty short brain disease but brutal and - I was gonna say merciless but maybe there was some mercy in it not dragging out to a year or more - I don't know what to think...

 

[AnonymousS]

That's what I'm doing.

Sorry to hear that, take care of yourself.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

How was it with yours? (You def don't have to answer.) My mum's was a pretty short brain disease but brutal and - I was gonna say merciless but maybe there was some mercy in it not dragging out to a year or more - I don't know what to think...

That's np. I can answer. My mom was under Hospice care for about 8 months. I lived with her at her house as caregiver. I guess you could say there was some suffering involved. It was her heart, mostly. She had severe blockages in both her legs, which resulted in sores that would not heal. hospice cared for the sores to keep them from getting worse. Some became infected because of the lack of blood flow. I think the pain gradually got worse over time. My mom didn't like pain medicine, and unbeknownst to me, was hiding them on occasion. She took some. It was just the heart getting too weak. A weak heart causes a lot of other things to start happening, too.

Near the end she was getting more uncomfortable. It was easy to see that. She stopped eating. Then she stopped drinking. Hospice wanted me to give her something stronger for her pain that they had brought into the house for near end of life. It's called a "stat pack", and it has several very powerful pain killers in the kit, along with some anti-psychotic medication. I didn't want to do it. I had to crush up the pain killer and mix it with a little water in order to put it into a syringe and administer it that way. That pain medication retards the breathing, and along with a very weak heart, well, you can see where it would go. She had a heart attack overnight in her sleep, and I somehow must have heard something. So, I got up to check on her and it was evident that she was near death. Her breathing wash shallow and her heart was beating at about 170 beats per minute, but it wasn't a good beating. Obviously, she was unconscious. All I could do was hold her hand and tell her how much I loved her. I gott a stop now,

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry for your loss. Wishing I knew what else to say.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

Sorry for your loss. My mom died in 2008 and I still miss her.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

That's np. I can answer. My mom was under Hospice care for about 8 months. I lived with her at her house as caregiver. I guess you could say there was some suffering involved. It was her heart, mostly. She had severe blockages in both her legs, which resulted in sores that would not heal. hospice cared for the sores to keep them from getting worse. Some became infected because of the lack of blood flow. I think the pain gradually got worse over time. My mom didn't like pain medicine, and unbeknownst to me, was hiding them on occasion. She took some. It was just the heart getting too weak. A weak heart causes a lot of other things to start happening, too.

Near the end she was getting more uncomfortable. It was easy to see that. She stopped eating. Then she stopped drinking. Hospice wanted me to give her something stronger for her pain that they had brought into the house for near end of life. It's called a "stat pack", and it has several very powerful pain killers in the kit, along with some anti-psychotic medication. I didn't want to do it. I had to crush up the pain killer and mix it with a little water in order to put it into a syringe and administer it that way. That pain medication retards the breathing, and along with a very weak heart, well, you can see where it would go. She had a heart attack overnight in her sleep, and I somehow must have heard something. So, I got up to check on her and it was evident that she was near death. Her breathing wash shallow and her heart was beating at about 170 beats per minute, but it wasn't a good beating. Obviously, she was unconscious. All I could do was hold her hand and tell her how much I loved her. I gott a stop now,

Damn friend, I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that.

 

[Yakamoz]

I am very sorry. RIP

 

[Euthanza]

Death really do transfer the pain to those who were left behind, think now that your mother is no longer suffering. I wish you strength to overcome the sadness. RIP mom.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Thanks all for you heartfelt words. But please go back to helping the OP with their loss. This thread isn't about me nor should it be.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Sorry for your loss. My mom died in 2008 and I still miss her.

D'you wanna share anything about that? (Def no worries if not.)

 

[virgilwalks]

words cannot relieve the pain but so sorry for your loss

 

[Lily (Osako)]

I'm so very sorry for your loss.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[ge0rge]

i really am very, very sorry. i don t know how well you got along or what kind of person she was, but i know that losing one s mother is a fundamentally shattering loss one way or another.

 

[Eternally Dottie]

I'm so sorry. I'm here x

 

[FuneralCry]

In this life, death and loss are inevitable. It's certainly a very cruel existence, but at least all those gone are now at peace. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[Theanswer]

I'm so sorry. Losing my mom was one of the most tragic things I have ever had to endure. When I asked an aunt how am I going to deal with this, she said, you never get over it - you do learn how to deal with it. That, helped "me." It took a long time. I hope you can stop numbing out with drinking or at least a little because while drinking "seems" to numb out the feelings, it made it worse for me. I do get it, though.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Also drinking. RIP.