Discussion My motivation.

[LifeAfterDeath00]

Honestly, I have been a member since 2019, and most of the time I wasn't thinking clearly when I posted, but this page somehow embedded the idea in me that it is okay to draw the line at some point. I think, I should not have to/need to commit suicide, but I don't want to see myself turning into someone I don't like. I am afraid I am turning into that someone. It is better to go, of course a lot of people won't agree but then again, I don't seek approval, I seek peace. I am clearly thinking now, my expectations blind me, yet the devastation when they are not met is heart breaking. I am preparing myself, and the best part is I have finally learned that this is what I want, so I do have the right to keep calm, not panic, and go off. This is. scary I have been so unsure for so long, now that I do feel a bit sure I am still questioning. But I know this is the best option for me.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I hope you are able to find the peace you are looking for.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Honestly, I have been a member since 2019, and most of the time I wasn't thinking clearly when I posted, but this page somehow embedded the idea in me that it is okay to draw the line at some point. I think, I should not have to/need to commit suicide, but I don't want to see myself turning into someone I don't like. I am afraid I am turning into that someone. It is better to go, of course a lot of people won't agree but then again, I don't seek approval, I seek peace. I am clearly thinking now, my expectations blind me, yet the devastation when they are not met is heart breaking. I am preparing myself, and the best part is I have finally learned that this is what I want, so I do have the right to keep calm, not panic, and go off. This is. scary I have been so unsure for so long, now that I do feel a bit sure I am still questioning. But I know this is the best option for me.

We wish you find your peace.

 

[LifeAfterDeath00]

We wish you find your peace.

I am still taking my time honestly, I don't want to feel like this world betrayed me, I just want to accept that maybe this world simply wasn't meant for me, and I was never meant for me.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I am still taking my time honestly, I don't want to feel like this world betrayed me, I just want to accept that maybe this world simply wasn't meant for me, and I was never meant for me.

There is no reason to rush into things, of course.
I'm not sure how you mean by "you are not meant for yourself" and I'd love to have you elaborate on that if you dont mind.

Else, I'm sure you'll be able to make the right decision for yourself.

 

[LifeAfterDeath00]

There is no reason to rush into things, of course.
I'm not sure how you mean by "you are not meant for yourself" and I'd love to have you elaborate on that if you dont mind.

Else, I'm sure you'll be able to make the right decision for yourself.

I also don't know when this absurd idea got into me hahaha, I mean I am not really there for me, I can barely take care of myself, love myself etc. apart from the natural SI, I am pretty certain I have a tendency to put myself in danger.

Honestly, I have been a member since 2019, and most of the time I wasn't thinking clearly when I posted, but this page somehow embedded the idea in me that it is okay to draw the line at some point. I think, I should not have to/need to commit suicide, but I don't want to see myself turning into someone I don't like. I am afraid I am turning into that someone. It is better to go, of course a lot of people won't agree but then again, I don't seek approval, I seek peace. I am clearly thinking now, my expectations blind me, yet the devastation when they are not met is heart breaking. I am preparing myself, and the best part is I have finally learned that this is what I want, so I do have the right to keep calm, not panic, and go off. This is. scary I have been so unsure for so long, now that I do feel a bit sure I am still questioning. But I know this is the best option for me.

Oh also I want to mention this, I knew a certain someone who told me that I am the most miserable, made me feel very pathetic at a time when I was already completely destroyed. I think I realized I am out of steam, tomorrow I purchase N, I will also get my SN sometimes soon. Wish me luck! I feel like I am the luckiest girl out there.