I'm scared to tell mom that I'm suicidal, we already have a bunch of problems to face in home and she went through a lot in life... So, saying her son is sick and depressed would make things worst, imo.
Also I think it's a consensus that when we kill ourselves, we are killing the people which cares and love us too, which is the hardest part.
I can achieve piece thinking on CTB, but the reaction of parents & loved ones with that, always kills me inside and keeps me insecure to do what I gotta do.
We are essentially killing people we love when we kill ourselves, this is an harsh reality.