Venting my mom and i had a very big fight yesterday

[mrborea]

i was trying to forget about everything and just exist by myself in my room, i will be off to uni in a few months already but my mom is driving me insane. i think she had a fight with my dad before she came to my room, i heard her yelling at him. i had taken my friend to hospital yesterday because she tried to OD with her own pills. but i didnt explain to my mom that it was that way and that she just mistook some pills. i dont even know how that turned into a fight, she just started making aggressive remarks and i told her "are you here to fight with me or ask what happened?" and fast forward an hour later she had cornered me and was trying to roll my sleeves to look at my scars and make me feel guilty for that. i was terrified .the fight got kinda physical at some point and she scratched my arm and hit my leg with a chair. it hurts to the touch. ita not a big deal though, i know i deserve this. i just dont know anymore, she blames me for every shingle bad thing that happens. i dont want to live like this, i know i will never get over how she treated me my whole life. i can feel her manipulating me and making me feel like i am the guilty one but i dont even know if thats really the case. i feel insane. i will probably jump off my balcony sometime this week. i feel like i deserve all of this. i am sorry if i made any spelling errors i am trying to type this really fast to not get caught

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful, to me it's just so horrible how other people can very easily just make things worse and create more suffering, humans certainly are so cruel. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Catastrofe]

I can only try to imagine how hard life is for you atm, but surely you *do not deserve it*. Manipulation an sense of guilt are very powerful weapons, and you must have a strong sense of self to not be influenced by them at all - which is something that, in some degrees, everyone has and everyone has to work on.
Is there any way you can move out? Even though not now but in a short time?
I know how exhausting it can be, and then when we feel bad we do not want to wait, but if you can see a sort of escape then it would help you a lot.

Let us know!