Help My method to do it

[curiousbeing]

Hello. I want to cut to the chase and briefly, succinctly mention all details I consider important. I want to end this.

Location: some remote desert like place. No people, no skyscrapers, only shrubs, and perhaps wolf, snake.

A little about me: severely underweight (just about 100 pounds=45 kg). I get tired easily. I have blood clotting problem, lack of hemoglobin


Method:

1) So... Hunger. Fasting. I will drink water (being thirsty=kidney failure=too much pain). Some headache pills (to alleviate headache from hunger), calming pills to not feel scared of death. A mask, so people can't easily identify me

2) this is backup method. If I see that people are almost finding me and catching me... I can use this method asap. A kitchen knife. Throat. This is for worst case scenario, because I still can't correctly identify exactly where carotid arteries are. And I can't hit arteries in the arm / leg because body can just shut down blood to those places and I can end up found + surviving.My biggest problem: I fear of accidentally cutting some nerves in the throat and paralyzing myself. But yeah, I will research all nerves in the throat and find which ones can paralyze me




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[locked*n*loaded]

Those are your only options?

 

[curiousbeing]

I don't have access to drugs and it's just too complex for my adhd brain. I don't want to vomit. I also can do shallow water drowning method but it's winter here.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Honestly, I'd never choose either of the methods you listed. There's always drowning. Or jumping off a cliff or very tall building. I don't like either of those either, though. Maybe some type of asphyxiation like hanging. I guess in the end you have to do what works for you, though.

 

[FuneralCry]

Those methods just sound awful and risky to me, especially the second one but anyway I wish you the best of luck and I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[Viranamari]

Those methods sound absolutely horrifying. Starvation has a lot of survival instinct and it's very painful but at least you have pills to help you. Slitting yourself also has a lot of survival instinct and like you mentioned, you might fail if you don't do it correctly. I really don't suggest either so you should probably consider another method. There are other methods that are more reliable, less survival instinct and overall, more ideal.

 

[curiousbeing]

Those methods just sound awful and risky to me, especially the second one but anyway I wish you the best of luck and I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for.

I can't find any other method suitable to me. But maybe I will do asphyxiation. I just need something to cover my mouth and nose. I have seen that if I take full breath, and hold it, I can last longer. How do you think? Maybe I will make a post about this

Those methods sound absolutely horrifying. Starvation has a lot of survival instinct and it's very painful but at least you have pills to help you. Slitting yourself also has a lot of survival instinct and like you mentioned, you might fail if you don't do it correctly. I really don't suggest either so you should probably consider another method. There are other methods that are more reliable, less survival instinct and overall, more ideal.

But what can I do? I checked resources section here. My only option is asphyxiation.

Honestly, I'd never choose either of the methods you listed. There's always drowning. Or jumping off a cliff or very tall building. I don't like either of those either, though. Maybe some type of asphyxiation like hanging. I guess in the end you have to do what works for you, though.

it is hard to find a method. Maybe I will do asphyxiation... I feel hopeless.