Venting My mental illness does not allow to express everything I feel

[faust]

Hello everybody!
There are some times when I can barely type anything and it is difficult to even read the threads.
Sometimes I just stare at the screen and cannot say a word about what it feels like.
Now I don't feel good, but well enough to tell you.
It is difficult when you see people like you suffering, but it is more difficult when you want to tell them that you care about them but you can't.
I experience the same.
There were lots of posts and threads which I really wanted to comment.
In many posts I find myself and I truly understand you.
It doesn't feel like it is the first time you see this person. It is like you know each other the entire life.
I am sorry for being unable to show my love and talk to you...
If it turns out that I read your words and do not leave a message, just know that I love you and care about you

 

[Pan]

Sweet thoughts from you...let's face it, expressing the inexpressible can be difficult...at least you have the courage and foresight to admit it...

 

[faust]

Sweet thoughts from you...let's face it, expressing the inexpressible can be difficult...at least you have the courage and foresight to admit it...

Sometimes I can stay all day in bed plainly looking at the wall, screen and just what is close to me. Cannot continue writing the book therefore, even chat

 

[Ghost2211]

lol I know how hard it is to not be able to express oneself. Two of my kids are autistic and one could talk till 4 the other is 2 and still can't talk. They use nonverbal a lot, but it's clear how much is trapped in their little minds. They get sad and mad when they can't communicate.

i get transient global aphasia. I can't speak, type, read, or understand language. It can be very isolating to not be able to make our thoughts And opinions heard. I'm sorry you're enduring this.

youre valued and not alone.

 

[faust]

lol I know how hard it is to not be able to express oneself. Two of my kids are autistic and one could talk till 4 the other is 2 and still can't talk. They use nonverbal a lot, but it's clear how much is trapped in their little minds. They get sad and mad when they can't communicate.

i get transient global aphasia. I can't speak, type, read, or understand language. It can be very isolating to not be able to make our thoughts And opinions heard. I'm sorry you're enduring this.

youre valued and not alone.

Thank you, your opinion really matters to me!
Although I know how hard it can be, I wish you all the best anyway

 

[Lady Lazarus 2020]

Hello everybody!
There are some times when I can barely type anything and it is difficult to even read the threads.
Sometimes I just stare at the screen and cannot say a word about what it feels like.
Now I don't feel good, but well enough to tell you.
It is difficult when you see people like you suffering, but it is more difficult when you want to tell them that you care about them but you can't.
I experience the same.
There were lots of posts and threads which I really wanted to comment.
In many posts I find myself and I truly understand you.
It doesn't feel like it is the first time you see this person. It is like you know each other the entire life.
I am sorry for being unable to show my love and talk to you...
If it turns out that I read your words and do not leave a message, just know that I love you and care about you

You are not alone. I feel the same way.

 

[faust]

You are not alone. I feel the same way.

Thank you for your support! Sending you hugs

 

[Lady Lazarus 2020]

Thank you for your support! Sending you hugs

Hugs right back. This is probably a dumb question but is that a real baby dolphin? And is that you holding it?

 

[faust]

Hugs right back. This is probably a dumb question but is that a real baby dolphin? And is that you holding it?

This is a real baby dolphin, but I do not know the person who is holding it

 

[Green Destiny]

Oh believe me my friend I'm in the same boat. I'm very uncomfortable about talking about what I'm going through in real life, and when I first joined up here I still didn't feel comfortable enough to try and connect. Seeing that others have trouble makes it more relatable.

 

[faust]

Oh believe me my friend I'm in the same boat. I'm very uncomfortable about talking about what I'm going through in real life, and when I first joined up here I still didn't feel comfortable enough to try and connect. Seeing that others have trouble makes it more relatable.

I hope this forum will make it possible to tell what you feel

 

[Despondent]

I love you, care about you, like I do everyone else here :) I want you to know that, and even if we are strangers and don't know each other. I feel like I don't have to know every single person on this forum. I feel a connection with everyone; even if my reasons are far from ever being the same to others reasons for ctb. If only the bus we were all looking to catch would really take us far away from here where it can be only us. I love the thought of that. A beautiful paradise.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Hello everybody!
There are some times when I can barely type anything and it is difficult to even read the threads.
Sometimes I just stare at the screen and cannot say a word about what it feels like.
Now I don't feel good, but well enough to tell you.
It is difficult when you see people like you suffering, but it is more difficult when you want to tell them that you care about them but you can't.
I experience the same.
There were lots of posts and threads which I really wanted to comment.
In many posts I find myself and I truly understand you.
It doesn't feel like it is the first time you see this person. It is like you know each other the entire life.
I am sorry for being unable to show my love and talk to you...
If it turns out that I read your words and do not leave a message, just know that I love you and care about you

Thanks for expressing this. I often feel the same. I want to reply to every thread, especially when someone is suffering. But sometimes I'm just so exhausted with my own shit. Especially on the goodbye threads. Don't know what to say half the time.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Hey you don't need to say sorry to anyone. I'm glad you're here and I know you're thinking about everyone and that you care. Don't do things you don't feel able to, post when you want to and feel able to. You're your own priority and you have to take care of yourself first

 

[DoNotLet2]

Omg, relatable, I'm never/hardly ever understood which makes it hard to express.

 

[faust]

I love you, care about you, like I do everyone else here :) I want you to know that, and even if we are strangers and don't know each other. I feel like I don't have to know every single person on this forum. I feel a connection with everyone; even if my reasons are far from ever being the same to others reasons for ctb. If only the bus we were all looking to catch would really take us far away from here where it can be only us. I love the thought of that. A beautiful paradise.

Thanks a million for your support! It is really what I need now... Still cannot believe there are kind people like you here on this forum. Yes, maybe the reasons why we are here are different, but certainly there are things that unite us, maybe our connections are sometimes stronger here than in real life. But it is always more important to be with those who are in the same boat...

Thanks for expressing this. I often feel the same. I want to reply to every thread, especially when someone is suffering. But sometimes I'm just so exhausted with my own shit. Especially on the goodbye threads. Don't know what to say half the time.

Thank you for listening! Your words really matter... I often hear that I am a slacker, but I know for sure that many people who are called 'lazy' are not actually lazy. If you dig deeper, you may find so much reasons why people behave in this or another way. I might assume that 'they' were calling you lazy too, full of ignorance and prejudice. Is that true?

Hey ❤ you don't need to say sorry to anyone. I'm glad you're here and I know you're thinking about everyone and that you care. Don't do things you don't feel able to, post when you want to and feel able to. You're your own priority and you have to take care of yourself first ❤

Hello, sister! Saw a lot of your comments before I registered there!
Please, understand me right. Before I go, I would like to help those who needs that. I would like to support everybody who is desperate no matter what their decision is. My personality does not exist, I think it is a little bit too late to take care of myself since I cannot identify who I really am. But thank you for your message, it is very important for me

Omg, relatable, I'm never/hardly ever understood which makes it hard to express.

Oh, I know well what you are talking about... Just be sure we accept you and understand if it is hard for you to express

 

[binturong]

I understand you so well, I probably have other reasons, but I understand.
I read and formulate the answer in my thoughts, but almost never write.
So many thoughts that I would like to share, so many emotions to say something to make a person feel better or to express sympathy, love, but I find it difficult to translate such emotions into words and the publication of any of my thoughts a cause anxiety is just few of many reasons, I have mental and physical problems, psychologist suggested that I was aspie. In those rare days when I feel better, I could speak, but the problem of the language barrier bothers me, I am afraid that the program translation will distort my thoughts and they will sound rude,afraid to be misunderstood.
To have many thoughts or emotions, but not be able to express them, like a curse.

"If it turns out that I read your words and do not leave a message, just know that I love you and care about you"
This is what I really wanted to tell everyone here!
Thank you so much for sharing!

 

[faust]

@coda
I will appreciate every word you say
You are always welcome there and your feelings truly matter!
The fact that you use a translator does not make you undervalued.
We are here to listen and won't judge you for this
If this is not a secret, what is your native language? Maybe in this case you will be able to find friends whose native language will be same as yours.
Anyway, thank you for your opinion! If you do not feel okay to write anything, you can always do that when you fell better :)

 

[binturong]

@coda
I will appreciate every word you say
You are always welcome there and your feelings truly matter!
The fact that you use a translator does not make you undervalued.
We are here to listen and won't judge you for this
If this is not a secret, what is your native language? Maybe in this case you will be able to find friends whose native language will be same as yours.
Anyway, thank you for your opinion! If you do not feel okay to write anything, you can always do that when you fell better :)

Thank you very much for your kind words and understanding!

My language is not a secret, but there is a man whom I can call a friend, but I rarely write, because of my mental problems.

 

[faust]

Thank you very much for your kind words and understanding!

My language is not a secret, but there is a man whom I can call a friend, but I rarely write, because of my mental problems.

No worries, everything is up to you