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tiredandafraid
Silent Night
- Aug 23, 2024
- 16
Hello everyone,
I'm new here. I'm a 44-year-old male. I'm an open book. I'm going to list the things that made me the way I am currently.
Elementary school through High School:
Moved to a suburban town from a city:
1. Sexually abused by a peer who was bigger than me. Said peer went and told all of the kids that it was me that did it to him. The rest of my school life was filled with anxiety and depression.
2. During last year of high school my best friend started hanging out with different people. The one time I hung out with him and his new group of friends they held me at knife point and took what little cash I had.
Surprisingly I was able to overcome these things and still make friends who knew these people that did this to me were horrible individuals. I just kept living and learning.
Adulthood:
1. This event is the last straw. Went to an ER several times within a few week span with panic attacks and issues with my private area. Had a rash on my groin as well. The third time at the ER I got the chief of the ER. He said he needed to order a catheter for a sterile urine sample from my bladder. I questioned it because I was able to get up and pee on my own. Needless to say my wife was with me and told me to trust the doctor as we're all taught to do. She also worked for this hospital in medical coding. Long story short the nurse fucked up and injured me. I walked out of that hospital bleeding from my private area. I have never been the same physically or mentally since. My wife was able to see that the piece of shit ER Doctor changed the records hours after I was discharged to say I was unable to urinate on my own. My heart was broken. This happened a little over eleven years ago. I'm very scared. As it turns out I'm heading to an appointment with the urologist right now. I've never been so scared in my entire life.
I think I will need to CTB because I need peace.
With love,
N
I'm new here. I'm a 44-year-old male. I'm an open book. I'm going to list the things that made me the way I am currently.
Elementary school through High School:
Moved to a suburban town from a city:
1. Sexually abused by a peer who was bigger than me. Said peer went and told all of the kids that it was me that did it to him. The rest of my school life was filled with anxiety and depression.
2. During last year of high school my best friend started hanging out with different people. The one time I hung out with him and his new group of friends they held me at knife point and took what little cash I had.
Surprisingly I was able to overcome these things and still make friends who knew these people that did this to me were horrible individuals. I just kept living and learning.
Adulthood:
1. This event is the last straw. Went to an ER several times within a few week span with panic attacks and issues with my private area. Had a rash on my groin as well. The third time at the ER I got the chief of the ER. He said he needed to order a catheter for a sterile urine sample from my bladder. I questioned it because I was able to get up and pee on my own. Needless to say my wife was with me and told me to trust the doctor as we're all taught to do. She also worked for this hospital in medical coding. Long story short the nurse fucked up and injured me. I walked out of that hospital bleeding from my private area. I have never been the same physically or mentally since. My wife was able to see that the piece of shit ER Doctor changed the records hours after I was discharged to say I was unable to urinate on my own. My heart was broken. This happened a little over eleven years ago. I'm very scared. As it turns out I'm heading to an appointment with the urologist right now. I've never been so scared in my entire life.
I think I will need to CTB because I need peace.
With love,
N