Venting My life is technically perfect

[l1ablemistakes]

Title says it all. My family is loving and my parents are rich. I met the love of my life at 16 and we've been together for 6 years. I have so many incredible friends. I just graduated and started working my dream job in healthcare. It's rewarding. I love my job. In theory, I should be the happiest person alive.

I don't feel better. I feel like I've tried everything- medications and therapy and talking and whatever. I feel like if living my dreams doesnt help, nothing will. I'm struggling to find reasons to keep delaying the inevitable.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Have you tried watching Spice And Wolf (2024), it might help.



Alright, it probably won't, but at least you'll have watch a very good anime.

 

[l1ablemistakes]

I'll watch it. Thank you for your rec <3

 

[negi-maguro]

If we're doing recommendations, you should watch Haibane Renmei (2002) too.

 

[daieattomyum]

Title says it all. My family is loving and my parents are rich. I met the love of my life at 16 and we've been together for 6 years. I have so many incredible friends. I just graduated and started working my dream job in healthcare. It's rewarding. I love my job. In theory, I should be the happiest person alive.

I don't feel better. I feel like I've tried everything- medications and therapy and talking and whatever. I feel like if living my dreams doesnt help, nothing will. I'm struggling to find reasons to keep delaying the inevitable.

This might sound odd but i honestly think you should really try hypnotherapy particularly past life regression see if you're the type who can actually get into deep trance or not cuz if you are i guarantee your problem will be solved that way (you'll at least understand what the real underlying problem for u is)

 

[T22222222]

This might sound odd but i honestly think you should really try hypnotherapy particularly past life regression see if you're the type who can actually get into deep trance or not cuz if you are i guarantee your problem will be solved that way (you'll at least understand what the real underlying problem for u is)

have you tried something like that?

 

[hurb]

Title says it all. My family is loving and my parents are rich. I met the love of my life at 16 and we've been together for 6 years. I have so many incredible friends. I just graduated and started working my dream job in healthcare. It's rewarding. I love my job. In theory, I should be the happiest person alive.

I don't feel better. I feel like I've tried everything- medications and therapy and talking and whatever. I feel like if living my dreams doesnt help, nothing will. I'm struggling to find reasons to keep delaying the inevitable.

it sounds like u can try to skip time no? many people in this situation tend to obsess over a specific type of media. one of the best ones , is to obsess over Live service games like overwatch , deadlock marvel rivals etc, because they keep adding new characters new plots etc , u will always be invested I guess . time passes so fast like that.
although u would have to inherently accept u will never be normal. and I think that by itself would give u more peace of mind in the long run.
unironically mangas like one piece kept people from offing themselves , because they were just too invested lol

 

[mayachcos]

Title says it all. My family is loving and my parents are rich. I met the love of my life at 16 and we've been together for 6 years. I have so many incredible friends. I just graduated and started working my dream job in healthcare. It's rewarding. I love my job. In theory, I should be the happiest person alive.

I don't feel better. I feel like I've tried everything- medications and therapy and talking and whatever. I feel like if living my dreams doesnt help, nothing will. I'm struggling to find reasons to keep delaying the inevitable.

Oh god I feel a similar way to you. I feel like lots of people on here have 'real reasons' to be suicidal and that I'm petty for wanting to die in my situation. Not to say everything is 'perfect' for me (lots of shit has happened to me which landed me here), but I can't get rid of the sorrow I have no matter how much healing, talking, therapy I try.

Honestly, it makes me guilty that I'm feeling so terrible when other people have it much worse and are okay.

 

[itsgone2]

Tragic. Sounds like your parents did everything right. You did too. Got everything you need.
I did everything wrong. Never gave my family a chance. I pray daily for a second chance. Would be terrible to do the right things and still wind up here. I hope you find a way out.

 

[BradGuy123]

Have you tried watching Spice And Wolf (2024), it might help.



Alright, it probably won't, but at least you'll have watch a very good anime.

I recently got into anime. I like Sword Art Online. There is so much anime out there it's overwhelming. It's like - where do I even start?

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I recently got into anime. I like Sword Art Online. There is so much anime out there it's overwhelming. It's like - where do I even start?

YOU START WITH SPICE AND WOLF 2024 OW0

 

[witchcraft]

I don't have advice really. I would just like to say that this isn't a competition. If you are depressed or desire CTB, then you are depressed or desire CTB.

Other than that, all I can really ask is: your life is technically perfect according to who? According to what?

 

[CosmicError]

Damn that's tough for most people its some reason they want to kill themselves financial , personal , or familial issues or a mix of all three I don't even know what to say maybe its your brain that is the culprit then maybe your brain is just not working like its supposed to i can not believe i am saying this but since you have a life that some people would do anything to have maybe you should give your self second chances please don't take this the wrong way i know how horrible it feels when someone says the "no you have so much to live for " bullshit i just want you to be absolutely sure that this is road you want to go down for most of us we don't have anything worth to live for anymore but maybe it will be different for you if you give yourself another chance you said you have tried everything doctors medications therapy etc . maybe you should keep searching maybe you will find something but of course you know yourself and your life best i was just replying to the given information that you have a "perfect life" . please don't take this answer in the wrong way i am just trying to put myself in your shoes as in "what would i do if i had a perfect life and felt suicidal" whatever you decide i hope you find peace.

 

[daieattomyum]

have you tried something like that?

Well personally i haven't tried it yet (but i will in the future for sure) mainly because my problems aren't the type that would be solved directly by something like that but given the circumstances of the one who made the post I'm certain that it will definitely work for him as I've seen it work before especially in cases like these

 

[kilowatt]

If we're doing recommendations, you should watch Haibane Renmei (2002) too.

I just started this a few days back, the first few episodes feel really slow paced and somewhat boring. Does it get better or is the whole anime just meant to be relaxing?

 

[l1ablemistakes]

This might sound odd but i honestly think you should really try hypnotherapy particularly past life regression see if you're the type who can actually get into deep trance or not cuz if you are i guarantee your problem will be solved that way (you'll at least understand what the real underlying problem for u is)

I'll try anything. I'm not sure my current psych offers this but I'll ask. At this point I'm considering ECT or TMS because I don't think medication works for me.

it sounds like u can try to skip time no? many people in this situation tend to obsess over a specific type of media. one of the best ones , is to obsess over Live service games like overwatch , deadlock marvel rivals etc, because they keep adding new characters new plots etc , u will always be invested I guess . time passes so fast like that.
although u would have to inherently accept u will never be normal. and I think that by itself would give u more peace of mind in the long run.
unironically mangas like one piece kept people from offing themselves , because they were just too invested lol

I always have a piece of media to obsess over so I don't have to think. Embarrassingly I am weaning myself out of a heated rivalry phase. That's bee filling the void for a few weeks but it's also been nudging me towards some gender issues I've been trying to avoid. I'll try to look at peoples recs for long form media to keep me sated

Oh god I feel a similar way to you. I feel like lots of people on here have 'real reasons' to be suicidal and that I'm petty for wanting to die in my situation. Not to say everything is 'perfect' for me (lots of shit has happened to me which landed me here), but I can't get rid of the sorrow I have no matter how much healing, talking, therapy I try.

Honestly, it makes me guilty that I'm feeling so terrible when other people have it much worse and are okay.

I'm glad it's not just me. I lied a little bit, things arent perfect, I'm chronically ill and I have been for also about 10 years, but same, it's nothing compared to some people on there who in my eyes have genuine reasons.

I share that guilt feeling. I feel so ungrateful for not being able to enjoy the immense amount of privilege I have.

Damn that's tough for most people its some reason they want to kill themselves financial , personal , or familial issues or a mix of all three I don't even know what to say maybe its your brain that is the culprit then maybe your brain is just not working like its supposed to i can not believe i am saying this but since you have a life that some people would do anything to have maybe you should give your self second chances please don't take this the wrong way i know how horrible it feels when someone says the "no you have so much to live for " bullshit i just want you to be absolutely sure that this is road you want to go down for most of us we don't have anything worth to live for anymore but maybe it will be different for you if you give yourself another chance you said you have tried everything doctors medications therapy etc . maybe you should keep searching maybe you will find something but of course you know yourself and your life best i was just replying to the given information that you have a "perfect life" . please don't take this answer in the wrong way i am just trying to put myself in your shoes as in "what would i do if i had a perfect life and felt suicidal" whatever you decide i hope you find peace.

I keep trying and waiting. At the moment I'm giving myself another 6 months til the end of my lease so I don't burden my flatmates more than I need to. I made the final decision about 6 months ago after years of contemplating it. I'm not in any rush and I do want to make sure this is actually what I want. I figured after that much time, if I'm not happy then I truly never will be. I'll go along with whatever med changes are bound to happen when I admit as much as I can to my psych while trying to avoid hospital. I really am trying.

 

[daieattomyum]

I'll try anything. I'm not sure my current psych offers this but I'll ask. At this point I'm considering ECT or TMS because I don't think medication works for me.

I always have a piece of media to obsess over so I don't have to think. Embarrassingly I am weaning myself out of a heated rivalry phase. That's bee filling the void for a few weeks but it's also been nudging me towards some gender issues I've been trying to avoid. I'll try to look at peoples recs for long form media to keep me sated

I'm glad it's not just me. I lied a little bit, things arent perfect, I'm chronically ill and I have been for also about 10 years, but same, it's nothing compared to some people on there who in my eyes have genuine reasons.

I share that guilt feeling. I feel so ungrateful for not being able to enjoy the immense amount of privilege I have.

I keep trying and waiting. At the moment I'm giving myself another 6 months til the end of my lease so I don't burden my flatmates more than I need to. I made the final decision about 6 months ago after years of contemplating it. I'm not in any rush and I do want to make sure this is actually what I want. I figured after that much time, if I'm not happy then I truly never will be. I'll go along with whatever med changes are bound to happen when I admit as much as I can to my psych while trying to avoid hospital. I really am trying.

Trust me i promise you won't regret trying it just look up someone online or something that's near where you live and who's a professional so u can schedule a session with them cuz i don't think any psych or regular hospital can offer that type of service

 

[vascomorrow]

Title says it all. My family is loving and my parents are rich. I met the love of my life at 16 and we've been together for 6 years. I have so many incredible friends. I just graduated and started working my dream job in healthcare. It's rewarding. I love my job. In theory, I should be the happiest person alive.

I don't feel better. I feel like I've tried everything- medications and therapy and talking and whatever. I feel like if living my dreams doesnt help, nothing will. I'm struggling to find reasons to keep delaying the inevitable.

Maybe medications made you feel this way. Just throwing that idea out there..

 

[l1ablemistakes]

Maybe medications made you feel this way. Just throwing that idea out there..

I've tried quitting a few times. No difference.

 

[negi-maguro]

I just started this a few days back, the first few episodes feel really slow paced and somewhat boring. Does it get better or is the whole anime just meant to be relaxing?

Yeah it's really slow and it's not even meant to be relaxing, it is truly a slow show. If you didn't like the first episode, I doubt the next three will change your mind. There's something big in episode 5 (iirc) that is relevant to SaSu if you decide to keep watching.

I'm glad it's not just me. I lied a little bit, things arent perfect, I'm chronically ill and I have been for also about 10 years, but same, it's nothing compared to some people on there who in my eyes have genuine reasons.

I share that guilt feeling. I feel so ungrateful for not being able to enjoy the immense amount of privilege I have.

Don't feel to bad, man. Pain isn't competition and and privilege doesn't cancel out suffering.

 

[walliwalli]

i get it. it sucks that no one is safe from mental health issues no matter the apparent quality of their life. it's become one of my reasons too, that even if i achieve all my life goals and everything is "right," i will still be vulnerable to emotional/mental suffering.

i also have a lot of privileges in my life. from an outsider's perspective, i have a lot to live for. a high quality education, a supportive family, and the beginnings of a decent career should mean my life will be okay, or at least okay enough to keep trying. but suffering is suffering. sometimes there isn't anything you can do about, and it's no one's fault. it's not always about circumstance.

sorry for the lack of advice. i just mean that your feelings are valid.