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TheCrypt
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- Nov 2, 2020
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My dad just got recently cancer he is 40 years old. And it's even harder now to survive daily life. Every of my fault makes me hate myself even more. I don't even can learn for school. How should I be normal someday with all the big things sabotaging me. I have ADHS and depression. I am a victim of domestic violence. My father did the same as his father. But I want to break this never ending story and want to improve myself and get a normal life without all the mental health things. But I'm not getting out of this. If my dad dies I don't even know if I can go on anymore. We just recently got together again and I can finally forgive him for the things in the past. But now he may be gone. I don't really know if i can still stand this. My girlfriend has problems as well and I try to name the things so she can change that but she can't handle to get really into it. She only runs away from her problems. And I tried to not do the same for quite some time now. It got really better but know it gets more and more complicated. I don't know what I should do. I feel like I'm alone with this situation and everyone else who try to help me doesn't really understand my miserable and pain. I don't want to go to the mental hospital a third time.