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progressingdeath
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- May 24, 2024
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My partner and I frequently break up and then wake up and we're together again for ruining our trust. This is entirely my fault and I do have good times quite often practically every day. However it's gotten to the point that I am accused of doing things that I'm not doing, we are deeply in love with each other, and we'll never stop trying. We know it's toxic, I feel like we are just waiting for each other to leave or for us to finally kill ourselves.
We've spoken about dying together and I think it's truly romantic and a very sick and twisted way but I honestly don't know what to do. We both feel like we are at and going to a point/path in our life where there isn't much we can do to go forward but at the same time we're not entirely miserable because we have each other and we make each other hang on and hope for the future. The only way I feel like I can truly just end it all is if I lost him because if I did I'd have absolutely nothing nowhere to live no one to love me and no one who cares since everyone at life has just shown me that they either just want to use me because I'm vulnerable and weak or they just can't deal with me. He saved me from sex trafficking and he saved me from my mother who doesn't care about anything I do and now I finally have a job and a life and I'm building with him but neither of us really know what we can do since we're at odds of what the truth is and because he doesn't know what the truth is and doesn't believe me it doesn't look like you can move on but you still hang on. I don't know what to do but my life would be nothing without him. We have both almost successfully committed suicide only being ruined by someone intervening before losing consciousness. I don't know what to do I sort of just feel comfortable with where I am and I feel myself striving less and less to get on with my life. I really just want him in my life
We've spoken about dying together and I think it's truly romantic and a very sick and twisted way but I honestly don't know what to do. We both feel like we are at and going to a point/path in our life where there isn't much we can do to go forward but at the same time we're not entirely miserable because we have each other and we make each other hang on and hope for the future. The only way I feel like I can truly just end it all is if I lost him because if I did I'd have absolutely nothing nowhere to live no one to love me and no one who cares since everyone at life has just shown me that they either just want to use me because I'm vulnerable and weak or they just can't deal with me. He saved me from sex trafficking and he saved me from my mother who doesn't care about anything I do and now I finally have a job and a life and I'm building with him but neither of us really know what we can do since we're at odds of what the truth is and because he doesn't know what the truth is and doesn't believe me it doesn't look like you can move on but you still hang on. I don't know what to do but my life would be nothing without him. We have both almost successfully committed suicide only being ruined by someone intervening before losing consciousness. I don't know what to do I sort of just feel comfortable with where I am and I feel myself striving less and less to get on with my life. I really just want him in my life
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