My life ended in 2019

[honkpilleddoomer]

My life has not been same since the covid happened, the only memorable moments of my life, i can think of are from 2019 and back. I wasted last three years to nothing to show for it, all my peers have moved ahead in life while i have lagged behind.

 

[RichardFirst]

The 'rona, or rather the state's utterly reprehensible reaction to it, has been the ruin of many people. I've seen marriages sundered, suicides and ruined careers. That is to say little of the economic issues that the lockdowns and the money printing created. HEre in Ireland, we were even treated to the sight of nurses and emergency service workers who danced like addled maenads.

If I had much faith in my fellow man, 2020 took it.

 

[hellispink]

Mine in 2010.

 

[man_in_red:)]

It's only going to get worse from now on so buckle up

 

[Source Energy]

Mine in 2015. I wish I had died then. I am a ghost walking, dead inside since then.

 

[aitouka]

And I can assure you that it will only get worse. But it's ok, you can still make memorable moments. The smallest of things can be memorable, even just chatting here. Good luck.

 

[Unending]

I could say the same. I had some pretty bad depression and such before covid but 2019 was when it really began to go downhill BIG time. I'm sorry for everyone here struggling.

 

[Abandoned Character]

all these "it will get worse" mfs scaring the shit outta me lol

 

[ChildrensITV]

If your life ended in 2020 then there is some hope of clawing it back. My life ended before half of you were born. My life has BEEN over. It's amazing I didn't CTB all these years. Mainly cuz I had no method/resource. SN is a gamechanger.

 

[sunshiningbackwards]

Yeah, I don't really see anything getting better from here on out. 2020 was practically the end of the world as I knew it.

 

[Hotsackage]

gr 11. my brain went awoll, so 20 years of just being at the burden of my bitch of a mind

 

[jerry545]

My life has not been same since the covid happened, the only memorable moments of my life, i can think of are from 2019 and back. I wasted last three years to nothing to show for it, all my peers have moved ahead in life while i have lagged behind.

I feel the same except life ended for me in late 2017. I made too many decisions and it led me to the worst places I've ever been.

 

[NorthernMonkey]

Sadly, I really loved the lockdowns. Not having to meet anyone and put on a happy act was such a relief, I was sad when it all went back to normal. I was kind of hoping for a full collapse of society, zombies would of been good too. I watched The Walking Dead during lockdown and was convinced it would be just what the world needed to reset :)

 

[Pinelzian]

My life has not been same since the covid happened, the only memorable moments of my life, i can think of are from 2019 and back. I wasted last three years to nothing to show for it, all my peers have moved ahead in life while i have lagged behind.

Mine too.
A traumatic event happened to me in 2019 and since then i never was the same. Actually, it got worst, and other traumatic events happened.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly believe that it's true that existing just gets worse over time, at least to me I could never see any value to enduring this futile struggle where we are all destined to suffer more and more. Life really is so unnecessarily cruel.

 

[whatevs]

all these "it will get worse" mfs scaring the shit outta me lol

It's just the obvious truth

 

[Teikoku]

I remember listening to a podcast back around 2009 discussing the growing police state and global government agenda, one of the speakers said something that resonated with me so much, it was along the lines of:

"Today is the most free you will ever be, you will never have as much freedom as you have today."

We were in a complete mess back then but 2019 was when they finally got things going at an exponential rate and it really feels like we're living in a dystopian movie at this point...

 

[CTB Dream]

Thnk befre injury damage die multlp time ,but prblm this befr injury damage, now injury damage prv prsn cmplt die now me dead stay live out space time injury damage cmplt kill me ,not qant stay this life

 

[outrider567]

My life ended 15 months ago

 

[Archness]

Pre-covid I was still in my delusion that shit will just work out.

Since 2022 I knew it's only downhill and it's very likely I'll die by ctb. 2023 I'm here, 2024-2025 I won't be.

all these "it will get worse" mfs scaring the shit outta me lol

It's just the obvious truth

Blackpill moment.

Thnk befre injury damage die multlp time ,but prblm this befr injury damage, now injury damage prv prsn cmplt die now me dead stay live out space time injury damage cmplt kill me ,not qant stay this life

What a nightmarish existence, to be reduced to a shell of your former self. No, worse, to become an undead zombie, no trace of the former person, shambling around here and other places, unable to rest in peace.

 

[NorthernMonkey]

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all these "it will get worse" mfs scaring the shit outta me lol

It isn't true, it will probably get a bit better, then slightly worse, then quite a bit better, then much much worse, then bearable, then fantastic, then a bit worse, then a lot worse, then horrendous... oh wait that's my life lol

 

[Anon1337]

Covid didn't really affect me, but since 2020 my life has got worse. I can relate, people in my life are moving on while I'm NEET.

 

[IBM0000]

I didn't desreve to live before 2019, but since 2019 I, thankfully, had my life go downhill extremely fast. Thank god for that.

 

[annique]

my life has always been broken apart, but i agree with you on that: for me life has ended in 2019. after covid and 2 years i stayed home, my depression deepened a lot plus i went through some trauma during that period... sadly, time seems to only move forward.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I agree with your sentiment. 2020 was the lynchpin for me. I was suicidal before then, but the COVID pandemic destroyed whatever hope I had for humanity and its future. Regardless of how things seem like they COULD get better, COVID taught me that they won't. And things just seem to be getting worse the world over. It just feels like it's time for me to go. Hope, at this point, is irrational if not outright crazy. I really don't know what pro-lifers hold on to for hope. I think they're just trying to cope with the fact that life really is pointless and their existence hangs at the whims of human nature. That's a precarious spot to be in. The one blessing that came out of COVID is that it shattered a lot of myths like religion and charity organizations. It showed just how inept leadership can be (particularly in the United States.) It made me realize just how much of an illusion the so-called "American Dream" really is. Yet, people are still trying to pursue it. I'm at the point where I just have a "let them" mentality toward all of it. I'm leaving this in a few days. I don't want to go where the human is trying to go.

all these "it will get worse" mfs scaring the shit outta me lol

Would you rather we lie to you?

 

[Gonnerr]

My life ended in 1986 when i was 6 and i left the comfort of my family and home for school.

Then i realized how much i was unfit for society , too much social anxiety and yet i was able to survive until now with a lot of luck but im running out of runway.

My health is fading and without that im nothing , no family , no gf because when you have autism and social anxiety , its very hard to attract people so you end up alone.

I can see the end of the runway from here , 43 , i still made it that far , its unbelievable.

 

[prezmyl]

2010, 2017
will see the stoned one.

 

[M1sT]

Mine ended in 2017 when I transferred to another city and got PTSD from teens there and got diagnosed with Schizophrenia.

 

[ihatethisplanet]

The return of panic attacks 10 years ago began to unravel my marriage and the 2020s have stuck a fork in it because it's done. 2019 was my last good year. I have so much resentment over the past three years. They ruined everything. I remember everyone talking about the "roaring 20s." Roaring indeed.

 

[jessisme]

I must win because my life ended in 1995. I have not made any friends since then or had any real development in my professional life that wasn't taken away. I did go to college but it only served to have me wind up with enormous debt that I cannot pay off because I live with my elderly mother on disability. What will likely happen to me when I am no longer able to live with her is that I will become homeless and unable to feed or clothe myself. I never managed to become able to provide these things for myself independently as my mental illness has held me back. There really aren't anymore chances for me now. I have ruined every opportunity I have been given in life. I have no more opportunity and am too tied by the consequences of past behaviors due to my mental illness that there is no starting over again for me. No friends, no romantic relationships, nothing. It has been all over for me since 1995 which was the last good
year for me. Since then everyone my age that I went to school with has gone on to school, get married, get jobs, have kids, get cars, get houses and in some cases HAVE GRANDCHILDREN. While I have literally none of those things (except a college degree) and am worse off than I was in 1995 because my reputation is ruined, I am morbidly obese and I no longer have a car to get around in. I never thought my life would turn out this way for me but it has. What else can i do besides ctb?