my last week <3 (sn ctb soon)

[mango000]

hello everyone, ive finally decided on a date for my ctb. it will be this friday and ill be using SN! it feels so peaceful to have my ticket out of here at my fingertips, im so glad that ive finally made this decision :3

unforunately, i dont have any access to benzos or antiemetics. i understand the experience will be far less pleasant because of this, but ive accepted that 20 minutes or so of discomfort for endless sleep is worth it for me. ill be using a higher dose of SN as im very overweight, 365lbs (165kg).

19:00hr last meal
06:00hr stop drinking water
07:00hr take 600mg of ibuprofen
07:40hr prepare sn glasses (35g + 70ml water)
08:00hr drink SN

i hope 35g will be enough, i know its recommended to take that much if you weigh 100kg, but i weigh quite a bit more than that... however ill have two backup drinks so i think it will turn out okay :D

if anyone has any words of support or things they would like to share, it would mean the absolute world to me, i love reading your replies. thank you for reading. ill make another post on the day of

 

[Tonic_Secrecy]

I myself am getting my SN here soon I should be able to ctb before the end of this month I wish you luck and hope you succeed and find peace godspeed.

 

[grants]

sending love your way, rest easy <3

 

[JesiBel]

I hope everything goes as you planned. Lots of peace and serenity. Hugs for you (:

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I hope your last week goes well... I've only seen you a couple of times, but you really were a great member here to feel at home with. You deserve peace and truly great things. It will feel like we lost someone, but I know it's for the best. Good night and stay safe out there back in the stars where you will actually feel clothed and loved.

 

[ma0]

I hope you find the peace and happiness you're looking for.

 

[platypus77]

The recommendation on the PPH is 25g up to 100kg and 35g if over 100kg, doesn't really says anything else.

LD50 is reported as 4.9g for 70 kg = 0.07g per kg.
For 165kg, LD50 = 0.07 × 165 = 11.55g.

PPH is calculated as 25g for 100 kg = 0.25 g per kg.
For 165 kg, PPH = 0.25 × 165 = 41.25g.
With a ratio of 41.25 ÷ 11.55 ≈ 3.57.

Math says the dose should be around 41.25g to achieve the same ratio per kg.

I wish you to be successful.
You might find this thread interesting:

My experience with SN

If you want to know the effect, just go to the "---". Hi everyone. A year ago I decided to CTB with other people IRL. I talked a lot to them and they convinced me to try and seek professionnal help. I'm back here again so you can understand that it didn't work. I wanted to share my story with...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[human909]

I hope you find the peace that you've been searching for and good luck.

 

[emptygal]

I wish you peace and that you are surrounded by love and warmth. May your path be as gentle as possible and may you feel that you are not alone.

 

[mango000]

I hope your last week goes well... I've only seen you a couple of times, but you really were a great member here to feel at home with. You deserve peace and truly great things. It will feel like we lost someone, but I know it's for the best. Good night and stay safe out there back in the stars where you will actually feel clothed and loved.

this is one of the sweetest things ever said to me, thank you so much. i think ill sleep extra good tonight

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

this is one of the sweetest things ever said to me, thank you so much. i think ill sleep extra good tonight

You avoided me but don't worry, it was true by the why you were apart of this place, even before I got here, and you did deeply care to know about people and what goes on in their world. Of course <3 Good night! Sleep and get rest and prepare. ((:

 

[Silently Dying]

hello everyone, ive finally decided on a date for my ctb. it will be this friday and ill be using SN! it feels so peaceful to have my ticket out of here at my fingertips, im so glad that ive finally made this decision :3

unforunately, i dont have any access to benzos or antiemetics. i understand the experience will be far less pleasant because of this, but ive accepted that 20 minutes or so of discomfort for endless sleep is worth it for me. ill be using a higher dose of SN as im very overweight, 365lbs (165kg).

19:00hr last meal
06:00hr stop drinking water
07:00hr take 600mg of ibuprofen
07:40hr prepare sn glasses (35g + 70ml water)
08:00hr drink SN

i hope 35g will be enough, i know its recommended to take that much if you weigh 100kg, but i weigh quite a bit more than that... however ill have two backup drinks so i think it will turn out okay :D

if anyone has any words of support or things they would like to share, it would mean the absolute world to me, i love reading your replies. thank you for reading. ill make another post on the day of

I am new here and came across your post. I'm so sorry that you are in such pain. this world is full of ugly people. Im leaving on Sunday. I wish you peace on the next step of your journey.

 

[loneloser]

Cya man, peace

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

Good luck on your journey. I shall be following you soon, possibly without AE. So if you survive, please give an update!

 

[squidsponge]

Godspeed. I'm here to get some courage as well

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.